Cinderalla89

2007-02-24T01:16:00.000-08:00

Didn't want to blog actually cuz there was nth to blog abt but well..yea..just blogging..

I was like a bit emo today...and very tired even though i slept 7 hours! I ran out of kopiko..no more sweets to wake me up already! I want Mentos!!

Heard that Cougar won IHDC..congrats to them! Maybe if some of my classmates had taken part, PUMA would have had a chance too? lol

Suzy's back in S'pore! She just msged me! I'm glad! Haha..she still say she din enjoy her trip that much..missing like 2 weeks of sch is so shiok lah..lol..

I'm sad that Mrs Siva has to leave..i think i did mention it b4..but i feel it more during her lessons esp..gonna miss her style of teaching, her humor, her sarcasm. her funny expressions and stuff.. =(
Maybe i shld tell myself more firmly to not be too attached to anything or anyone for everything leaves us at one time or another...

Next week is gonna be a killer week! Have Bio SPA, Bio topical test, GP time practice and chem common test! Heard that the physics students have a test too! Which means we have almost like 5 tests in a 5 day period! Hmmz..i do not mean to be negative or anything but i do know that im gonna fail all the tests even b4 i take them..Chem is sure die! I still dunno how to write AQ for gp..super blur abt Bio SPA stuff..dun think will have time to study for bio topical test too! Haha..but im not giving up..i'll still study even though i know its no use! lol =)

It's 1.15 am now..i shld go sleep cuz i have tuition tmr morning! Tata! Take Carez everyone! =)

2007-02-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

Had a nice day today! =)

I paid attention during bio lecture but i still didn't understand alot of things! lol..after that went outside LT1 to do work with liyi..then had bio remedial with Mrs Lim tgt with renes and wee theng and i think it was quite effective! Didn't really expect it to be though..lol..Maths lect was horrible..i didn't understand a single thing that the lecturer was teaching..was just copying blindly..and was chatting with liyi half the time..i think we were very noisy! Haha..but anyway, its fun crapping ard with her during lectures..

GP lecture! Haha! Was an interesting one..liyi, aurelia and I got called out by the lecturer for talking loudly during the video screening! lol..and aurelia super attitude to the teacher lah! I couldn't stop laughing after i left the LT! lol..I crashed Chinese lecture today! Dhanesh crashed too cuz we had no tamil..haha..was like attracting so much attention..so paiseh..heez..I taught liyi how to say numbers 1 to 10 in tamil during the lecture! lol PE was not bad cuz we din run much..did my favourite conditioning stuff..the teachers made us tuck in our tshirts until super toot! lol..but we were all still enthu! =) Oh! I miss suzy loads! Kept thinking that i heard her voice ard..disulphide aunties miss our missing aunty!! =)

Was supposed to have Mesahi dinner straight away after pe but the members had cca commitments so we decided to split up and meet later at Breeks! I followed andy to his house and waited for him to shower and change..lol..then we proceeded to breeks..by that time everyone was there and we started having a sumptious meal! Brother Andy treated all of us buffalo wings and dessert! Thx for the Brownie with ice cream bro! =) Really had a great time at breeks! We still had so much stuff to talk abt..after a long time saw pei shan's funny, drama side and kelvin's warm, cute side again! Haha..we r gonna have a post pw results gathering and ze ling said she'll pay for the food! Yay! Can't wait! lol..Go Mesahi!! =)

Its 9.30pm..just came back from Mesahi gathering and im sooo exhausted! Haiz..dun think i'll end up doing any work...and my sis borrowed two VCDs frm her friend and i borrowed a DVD frm andy..i wanna watch the movies during the weekend!! Feb is ending soon! So fast! Hmmz..Fun Filled Friday tmr with an extra bio tutorial lesson! Yay! lol

2007-02-20T21:33:00.000-08:00

Istana Park is really HUGE!! I thought Singapore had a scarcity of land! Haha..the large piece of land there could really be put into better use! Hmmz..caught a glimpse of the president but din get the chance to shake his hand..and there were no casualties..i slept in the ambulance half the day..lol..The only highlight was the few good-looking NS men that i saw near the ambulance parking lot..oh..the ambulance was parked near the mobile toilets and i will never forget the state the toilets were in! It was utterly horrible! Haha..i laughed everytime someone opened the toilet door and recoiled in disgust..sadistic me! lol

The only good thing i did during the CNY break was to clean up my room and to file up all the loose papers in my book shelf! lol..the roses I received for V day have finally wilted completely..couldn't bear to throw them away..haha..

Hmmz..should i let myself be involved in doing first aid for NDP 2007? 5 full saturdays and i think it'll be fun! But would i be wasting precious study time? Haha..i shall think abt it!

I'm in a 'oh wadever' mood...hmmz..i'll keep busy and not think too much..just have a bad feeling abt this week though...Let me be happy pls!!!

2007-02-18T23:50:00.000-08:00

Harlowz!! =)

I really spent my weekend slacking! Aiyo! I was planning to finish up so much work but ended up doing nth! Haha..and i keep feeling so sleepy! Just took cough syrup and its making me feel sleepy again! Heez..is there sth wrong with not feeling stressed at all? Cuz i really dun feel any academic stress now! And im like so relaxed lah..not worrying abt A'levels like some of my other frenz do...msged some of my frenz in nj on V day and they were all like, " J2 life is so tough..i can't wait for it to end"..while i was thinking, J2 life not that bad leh when im really not doing well in my tests! Haha..im wierd! I know i've gotta work hard but its so tempting to just forget abt work sometimes..lol..i think i shld be happy that im not stressed! =)

Having Project Mesahi outing at our usual Breeks this thursday after PE! Yay! Can't wait! haha..long since Mesahi was last tgt and i miss Andy! =)

I'm having full day first aid duty this tuesday at Istana! Which means i can get to see the president! Yay! Haha..i want to shake hands with him! =)

I think im blogging too much! Its becoming an addiction! lol..kk i better go try to do some work! tata! =)

2007-02-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

The time now is 8 am and i stay awoke the whole night, keeping age for my parents! Yay! Im proud of myself! One cup of coffee, one blog entry, 30 sit ups, 30 crunches, blog hopping and the writing of 4 testimonials was what it took me to keep awake! Haha..thx to poah sin for keeping me company all this while! He's turned extremely nice these few days! lol =)

Would like to wish renes sweetheart a happy birthday! Hope that all her dreams and wishes will come true! Stay happy sweetheart!! =)

Im gonna miss suzy! She flew off to taiwan during the CNY break and wun be back till next week! Come back soon and do enjoy urself suzy!! =)

My secret to being happy: Dun think too much! =)

2007-02-18T03:58:00.000-08:00

Hello!! Did this quiz thingy that i saw in sharon's blog..just felt like posting it as an entry so here it is! =)

1. What colour is ur hair?
*Black

2. Do u ever lie about ur age?
*I did. Once online. Once when i was going to rent a NC16 VCD and once when i was going to watch a NC16 movie. lol..maybe i'll have to lie abt my age in the future too..haha..

3. Do u prefer 'sensitive boys' or 'tough guys'?
*Hmmz..i think i prefer 'sensitive boys'.

4. Do u prefer blond or dark-haired guys?
*Dark-haired guys!! =)

5. How many things in your past do u regret?
*LOL..i don't keep track.

6. Do u have a best friend?
*Hmmz..not really..super good ones, i have! =)

7. What do u want to be when you grow up?
*I want to be so many things! A teacher, gyneacologist, pharmacist, social worker, psychologist, journalist and the list goes on! That's how aimless and fickle i am! lol

8. Have you ever kissed two pple in one night?
*Haha! No! Kisses are precious!

9. Where do u shop to buy most of ur clothes?
*Hmmz..anywhere that sells nice yet affordable clothes..like This Fashion! =)

10. Who was the last person you hugged?
*Haha..Lily Zhen who loves my hugs! =)

11. Have you ever had ur heart broken?
*Lots of times but it always gets mended back! haha

12. Have you ever wanted someone but u knew u couldn't have them?
*Haha..yea..that happens alot...but i always move on!

13. If you could change anything about ur past, what would u change?
*Hmmz..difficult qn..actually i dunno..i can't even rmb anything wrong with my past..lol..

14. Do u like your life?
*Yep! It rawks totally! Life treats me well most of the time although it abuses me at times..haha..

15. Do u shop at hollister?
*Eh..???

16. Has one of ur frenz ever stolen a boyfriend from u?
*Haha..nope..but they have unknowingly stolen my crushes!

17. Has one of ur frenz ever stabbed u in the back?
*Hmmz..i dun think so cuz i can't rmb anything like that. lol..i have a bad memory!

18. Did u forgive them?
*I would if they want to be forgiven. I try not to hold grudges! =)

19. Who is ur best friend in ur pri sch life?
*Seela Karen. Hahaz..she was the perfect friend i had till primary 3 when she moved house and transferred from my pri sch. =( Now she is in VJ and she lives at sengkang too! I do see her ard but i guess it's not the same as it was back then..haha..

20. Do u have more frenz that are girls or guys?
*Girls! haha..

21. How long have u had friendster?
*Abt 2 years i think...

22. Have u ever skipped sch?
*Of course! When im feeling lazy and tired..lol.

23. Have u ever slapped a boy in the face?
*Haha!! Yes! Poor Ah Choo received one when he irritated me like 2 years back and my brother got slapped by me in the past too! lol

24. What is one of ur biggest fears?
*Death of a beloved.

25. Have u ever skipped class?
*Yupz..when i feel that the lesson is redundant.

26. Has anyone close to u ever passed away?
*Nope

27. Have u ever cried urself to sleep?
*Yes. I think when i was younger. Now, i try not to waste my tears on insignificant stuff so i rarely cry.

28. Have u ever not been able to get someone out of ur head?
*Yes! I try so hard but it's so difficult!

29. Do u believe in the saying, "Once a cheater, always a cheater"?
*Haha..no lah..i dun think its that serious..

30. Are u a player?
*Haha..NO!

31. What is ur screen name?
*Cinderalla89 i guess...

32. Do u ever wish u were famous?
*Sometimes...

33. Do u ever wish u were a man?
*Haha..yes..when i think about how much more a woman suffers than a man..

34. What is the sweetest thing that can ever happen to you?
*haha..i dunno..anything that shows me that i am loved will seem sweet! =)

35. One word best describing you?
*Hmmz..unique? Or maybe Happy-go-lucky? Or maybe Sweet? lol..i dunno!

2007-02-17T14:41:00.000-08:00

I'm dedicating this entry to a very impt person who is now too busy to even care abt my existence! I know him for almost 5 years already! Watched him grow up actually..from a short kid to a tall guy..lol..

We were grouped in the same grp for red cross annual training camp once and i think we din really get along well then..but over the years, he somehow became one of my very good frenz and I his "trusted" friend..lol..

He's the first guy i gave a V day gift to, the first guy i spent soooo much on a birthday gift for..the guy i talked to the most on the phone(the longest is 2 hours 30 mins to be exact)..my gossip partner..the person whom i had alot of fun with..sometimes i think i know him inside out..cuz i can actually guess his thoughts and feelings...He never fails to cheer me up and i'm never bored when he's around... =)

As i think back on my sec sch life,i realise that he was part of all the happiest times i had had..we did have our own share of fights, squabbles and cold wars..i've even hated him for a period of time..but despite his flaws, which i've grown to accept,he still means alot to me! =)

Now, i would like to wish a SUPER DUPER HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO AH CHOO aka DEREK CHOO HENG HAN!!! =) =) =)

Ah Choo!! Hope that all ur dreams and wishes come true!! Have a happy life kies! Just want to tell u that i might not be near u always..we've graduated and are leading our own lives..busy as i am,i just hope that u know that i still care for u! Any problems or sorrows can always give me a call or msg kies!! Take Carez always Kuchi Puchi!! =)

2007-02-17T14:07:00.000-08:00

The power of a smile

Few truly understand the power of a smile. A smile from the bottom of the heart, no matter how brief or how many times you see it, will always brighten someone's day. On the other hand, an insincere smile, no matter how often or long, will instead have the reverse effect, for it can be seen that the "smiler" is insincere. Therefore, smile whenever you can, with all your heart, for you never know whose mood you may be affecting...

Extracted this frm Andy's friendster profile..found it quite meaningful so thought that i might share it with my readers! =) I agree with it wholeheartedly!! =)

2007-02-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

Hello! =)

Today was CNY celebration at AJ! I dunno why we still had to have lessons in the morning! Heard that other JCs dismissed sch at like 10 am lah..hmm..civics was replaced by maths in the morning..got back test paper and i failed as usual but i think i improved so i guess im not too sad abt it or anything..suzy number zero dun be demoralised k! Try harder and study smarter! We can do it! =) Kept coughing during maths..i've been coughing the whole day actually..haiz..dun tell me im falling sick again right after i 'd recovered from the bout of flu? Dun want!

After maths, Kelly and i went to the canteen to buy curry puffs from the cute curry puff guy! Hahaha..i think he looks like Hady leh! We queued up for almost 30 mins to see him!! Haha..kelly Qed for my sake too! Heez..thx kkk!! Haha..i was trying to talk to curry puff guy by asking him stupid qns but i think he was very tired today cuz he din really give me the same bright dimpled smile that he gave me yst..lol...anyway, i think the novelty will wear off soon and i wun be so excited to see him again..but really, how often can u see good looking canteen vendors? Haha..anyway, some guys in my class are so not sensitive! Girls too! They call out my name when my eyecandy walks past me and they keep signalling, making noise and stuff..I think he knows already lah! So embarrassing! Haha! Oh..cheng en agrees that he's good looking! Yay! At least i have one person who thinks the same way i do..liyi says that cheng en has bad taste! Hmph! Beauty is in the eye of the beholder i guess...

Today's hosting of the senior citizens from project sphere went ok..not very smooth but we managed the hiccups somehow..the old folks came like 30 mins earlier catching us unprepared! And we left the concert even before it ended due to some miscommunication..the buffet lunch was good though! lol..and the residents were very friendly! Was a different experience alright..i enjoyed myself with the interactors but i still missed my class during the concert! Haha..being enthu with them beats everything else! Heez..yupz..happy that everything ended on a good note! =) Happy CNY to all my chinese frenz!! =)

I don't want you to determine my happiness..but unfortunately, you do!

2007-02-14T23:08:00.000-08:00

Happy V day!! Happy Friendship day!! =)

Today was not bad lah..but i think last year was better. Anyway, i wasn't actually planning to buy chocs for anyone cuz i really had no money but i just felt bad not having anything to give so went cp to buy chocs yst. Then only had enough money to buy 16 bars of chocs so i had no choice but to give them selectively...gave all the 11 girls in my class and then 5 guys..so the guys who received should be honoured cuz u were chosen as u were special in some way! =) Haha..received many chocs and notes frm my class girls before morning assembly..thx so much to all of them! =) Sasha gave me a pretty rose! Thx dear! Thx to steven for the sweet little rose too! =) Thx to Poah Sin for dedicating a song to the whole class! =) it was a sweet song..i enjoyed it although i din understand the lyrics..lol...thx to 20/07 for their dedication too! =)

Lastly, thanks to an important person who made my day! PRAVIN!! He sent me flowers all the way from NYJC..was so surprised and touched!! Haha..thx loads pravin! I appreciate the gesture loads! =)

I had a date with melvin, gaya3 and sakinah after sch! Singles outing! lollol..went to eat at BK..and then gave ah choo his birthday gift..i guess he wouldn't open the gift nw..he'll wait till his birthday that day then open all the gifts..lol..anyway, derek choo, I din write my name on the wrapping paper so just telling u that its the blue one with the many many pigs on it! Hope u like the gift! =)

Kelly and I are not slackers anymore! We are participating in an event for track and field meet! At least we gave our names lah..haha..thx for accompanying me kelly!! =)

Happy One Month anniversary to WQ and Eileen!! =)

Happy fourth month anniversary to Pig Sis and bro in law!! =)

Sunshine I love you!! Dun be sad! Cheer up! Dun waste ur tears on insignificant stuff! Its not worth it! Haha..Stay happy! =)

I'm happy that my number zero is happy! Thx kokonut! =)

Ooo..i've got a new eyecandy! Currypuff guy with the cute dimples! Hahaha..life's gonna get exciting! lol

You broke my heart yet u mended it back again...

2007-02-13T21:59:00.000-08:00

Hello! Here is the long awaited #400th post entitled "First Impression"! Decided to come up with a list of first impressions that i had of my classmates early last yr. So i guess, only 20/06 pple would be interested in this entry! Haha..anyway, if u read sth bad abt urself, dun be offended cuz they really are my honest impressions of you and they might not be true anymore! And im sure all of u know that i love 20/06 loads and first impressions dun really count! =) Yupz..so i'll start and the names are in random order! =) Enjoy reading!

Arifah : Met her at AJ orientation 2. She was my OG mate. I thought she was unfriendly cuz she seemed so serious as compared to brandy whom i also got to know thru my OG. lol. I even thought that she didn't like me! haha..Now i know that she is really friendly and nice! She's super observant too..the first one to notice any changes in me! She sacrificed her break time to teach me organic chem once! Always see her in the morning when i end up being early to sch and she never fails to greet me with a HI! Arifah's not scary! Arifah's super nice! =))

Kelly : My Mortal! =) hmmz..can't really rmb our first meeting..but i think it was during one of the first few tutorial sessions when she smiled at me and i thought that she was pretty! She seemed to be one of the popular girls in the class. and i knew at once that she was an easygoing person when we started to talk during our pe runs and all. lol..Seems like pe is what bonded kelly and I the most. Still rmb the time when the both of us were in the same bio grp with wq but we couldn't stay tgt cuz wq kept distracting me by talking to me and playing with my choo choo green bear and ms leow separated me frm kelly by changing my bio grp cuz she thought that i was talking to kelly! lol!

Eileen : Got to know eileen thru liyi cuz liyi would always go and talk to eileen and accuse her of not caring abt her fellow nanhuarian. Then eileen would just kind of give teasing remarks to liyi and they seemed to be more like rivals than frenz..lol..i thought eileen was kind of haughty and proud when i was first introduced to her cuz she din really smile or talk that much and just seemed ignorant. lol. But now i know her better! And i think she's very nice to chat with online! She's also good at making me tear with her touching and motivating words! =)

Sharlene : Woah..this one is hard. I was never close to sharlene until quite recently. i think i first talked to her in the LT and i think we talked about the malaysian schools' uniform or sth. My first impression of sharlene was that she was a cool and confident person. I just can't rmb why though..hmmz..she stayed on and persevered even though yun ting and qian hui left! Sharlene is strong!! =)

Ze ling : I think i first talked to her during PE. Hmmz..first impression i thought that she was someone who thought highly of herself. Got to know her more thru Project Mesahi and i think she's not bad lah..haha..quite friendly at times. lol.

Liyi : Aunty Oriental!! =) Our first meeting was in the audi. She sat beside me and i turned my head to smile at her cuz i saw her drinking water from a hilariously cute water bottle and she just daoed me by turning her head away from me cuz she thought that i was smiling at someone behind her. lol. and she kind of gave me a wierd look. I was like thinking, " Hmmz..does this girl really belong in a jc..she seems so ah lian.." Haha..but i was proven wrong! Now i love my angel so much and she is one of my best frenz! =)

Aurelia : Pig Sis!! Got introduced to Aurili by liyi whom finally decided to be friendlier after the end of the talk in the audi. I was instantly attracted to aurelia's name! Thought that she was those shy, shy, quiet, quiet girls. Haha..when we had our breaks together, the three of us realized that we really had so much in common with each other. It was just click! on the spot. Still rmb how aurelia and i went to the library while liyi was at physics on one of the days and we were laughing at the simplest things found in the library! lol =) I knew aurelia was nice right from the start! =) Luv ya sis!!

Suzy : Number One!! Got to know suzy thru liyi. Sometimes i feel that 3/4 of the friendships i forged at AJ would not have been possible without liyi. She was like the chain that linked the disulphide aunties. lol. Anyway, first time i saw suzy, she looked so anxious and unfriendly cuz she wasn't smiling! lol..i kept on trying to be friendly with her but she never returned my friendliness. haha...until we found out that both of us liked pink i think! Then we started talking and tada! I got to know my number one who rawks my life with her laughter!! lol

Steven : Ooo!! My number zero! This one is interesting! I think steven was the first eyecandy i had in AJ. I called him the T-shirt guy cuz he always used to wear pe tshirt inside his uniform. I thought he was good-looking, with a nice boy-next-door image! Aurelia thought so too! And for a while, both she and I eyecandied him. Liyi thought steven was ok only and someone else in the class was more shuai. lol..and i was like, NO! Steven is so much better! Haha! I think it was during chem lesson when i got to know that my eyecandy and i were planning to join the same CCA-Air rifle. lol. i was so excited cuz it would mean i would be able to get to know him more. After chem lesson, we had break tgt and i realized when we started to talk that he was definately not the typical boy-next-door. haha..and soon i became the good friend of Mr Toon who's always there to colour my life! =)

Renes : My Sweetheart! =) thought that she was kind of bossy when i first saw her instructing the class on sth. lol. She seemed to have so much authority and confidence when she talked. Good leader! She looked athletic too and i think she is! =)

Wee Theng : Sweetheart number 2!! =) I thought wee theng had a loud, wild and outgoing personality when i first saw her cuz she was so spontaneosly going around introducing herself to all the new members in the class during PE..good first impression though cuz she was the first one to take the initiative to get to know everyone! Friendly and cheerful! =)

Peishan : My dearest sunshine!! =) It was during chem lab lesson, when i was looking for some apparatus and pei shan so enthusiastically helped me to get the apparatus and she still smiled very sweetly and this made me think that she was a really nice and helpful girl. =) Project Mesahi brought us closer and i got to know the wild, funny side of pei shan through the numerous meetings that we had tgt! =) My only Sunshine!!

Wei Quan : Big Liar! lol.. Hmmz..its quite hard for me to rmb the first impression made by the guys but i will try! WQ appeared to be shy and quiet to me when i first saw him. Can't rmb why though..oh yes..i think he asked me to hand in sth and he din even give any eye contact or smile! I thought he was kind of irritating too cuz he kept spinning his pens and then dropping them..lol..thought that he had a bit of the act-cool attitude but i now i think he is totally opposite! He can be really nice when he wants to be (although he rubs salt on pple's wounds on times) and he has a habit of knowing just what i'm thinking! =)

Poah Sin : My fellow slacker! lol..hmmz..I used to think that he seemed mean and unfriendly cuz he always wore a fierce expression..i thought that he was extremely comical when i kept seeing him sleep everywhere he went..His occasional waves, hellos and smiles made me change my opinion after a little while though..and the fact that he was friendly was confirmed the first time we really talked. Once, Both he and I had forgotten that there was a bio lecture after a half an hour break and we kind of accidentally ponned it and Spent time eating and talking at the canteen instead. lol.

Damien : Aunties liked to pair me up with him in the beginning..haha..i dunno why..lol..he seemed really quiet, mysterious and ' act cool'..lol..sat next to him during the MBTI workshop and he kept laughing at wadever i said or did and so i concluded that he was ok..quite friendly. =)

Freddy : We rarely talked in the beginning of J1. Had no opportunity to talk actually so can't really talk about first impression here. We were in chem grp tgt and i had thought that he had a condescending(go look up dictionary!lol) smile. He seemed to always underestimate me and i thought he was haughty too..but i think he became nicer towards the end of last year cuz he doesn't give me the condescending smile anymore! lol

Xavier : Professor! Haha..amuses me alot with his macho voice! haha..he seemed extremely shy and i thought that he has a phobia of girls or sth cuz he rarely talked to us..this made him seem kind of unfriendly in the beginning..i wish he and i would be grouped in some discussion grp tgt so that i can get to know him more cuz i think i dunno him well at all! Oo..now i think he's cute and funny! And he has a nice smile!! =)

Kelvin : Boss of Project Mesahi!! =) I think i first saw him in the audi too..he was sitting near me and i thought that he looked very studious and serious. Was kind of intimidated by him at times too until we became project Mesahi members and i got to know the warm, relaxed Kelvin! =)

Cheng En : My angel's ex-eyecandy!! lol..When i first saw him, i thought he was just another "act-cool" basketballer..oops..sry abt the stereotyping..but yea...after i knew that he was in choir too i was like wah not bad arh..all rounder..lol..He seemed kind of intimidating cuz i wasn't used to his straightforward self. I was always afraid that i would say the wrong things and offend him in some way..we always ended up in the same discussion grps tgt and this kind of allowed me to see that he is not as scary as he seems. =) oh yes..working with him for the emceeing during the thanksgiving ceremony at class chalet also improved my impression of him! =)

Andy : Brother! =) I got to know Andy during the early morning of the first day of sch. My OG mate was his friend and he introduced Andy to me. Immediately had a bad impression of Andy! lol..sorry bro...but Andy just seemed proud and haughty. Somehow the stuff he did and said always made me think that he thought that he was the best in the world! lol..but as i grew to know him better, i realized that he is actually very very nice, caring and gentlemanly! =) PW really brought us closer! Soon, Andy became my 'brother' who took care of me during pw meetings, buys me coffee and lends me his jacket when im cold! I'm always touched by ur care and concern bro! =)

Benjamin : Can't rmb the first impression but i rmb that i used to keep saying hi to him. And one day he kind of snapped at me, " Why do u keep saying hi to me?!" sth like that..lol..Then there was once when i found out that he and i had the same MBTI profile and i was telling it to him very excitedly..he once again snapped at me, " So what if same MBTI, still we r different people wad?" I was so hurt lah! LOL! Thought that ben was blunt and mean! And i still think he is sometimes! But i kind of got used to that part of his personality already..lol..he can be really nice when he wants to be though! =)

Boon Ping : Last but not least, my brother-in-law!! =) Hmmz..my first impression of bp was nth special..just thought that he was a typical average guy..until we grouped tgt for GP and chem! He helped me loads with my chem and over time i realised that BP is the best! LOL..in my opinion, brother-in-law is the nicest gentleman in 20/06! Truly one of a kind! =)

Haha! Finally finished my entry abt all 22 pple in 20/06! Yay! Did i hear some hearts shattering? lol..i'm sorry if i did offend anyone with my HONEST entry! Luv u pple always! =)

2007-02-13T21:20:00.000-08:00

Oh No! Haiz..my CNY thingy is giving me problems again and this time its a big problem! I can't stand him seriously..why can't he just help me instead of being a pain in the neck..he knows im helpless..haiz..i've to solve the problem quick if not i'll have to meet the consequences! =(

Today i was very mean to someone...actually im rude to alot of pple...haha..i was surprised tt pple still tolerated me..but today someone lost her patience.. i think i shld keep my mouth shut sometimes...i think my words hurt her..i know my frenz think i did a gd job or sth like that but im guilty..haiz..i want nice kavi to come back!

I'm beginning to slack again..my tutorials r undone..im falling asleep during lectures and tutorials..i'm wasting time at the com after sch..i was almost late to sch again today..my mind is wandering during lectures and i practically dun understand anything..knew that me being hardworking was just a phase..hmmz...

Just to make it an un-emo post, its V day tmr! Haha..last yr's Vday was a good one..hope tmr wuld be good too..liyi's dice told me that i will receive a surprise! Hope so cuz i love surprises! =)

I would post my #400 entry next! =)

Maybe ur not that special after all...

2007-02-12T19:59:00.000-08:00

Hi! I'm back from sch! Exhausted!! Haha..Just will blog some stuff so that i'll hit post number 400 soon so that i can post my special entry!

Today morning as i was walking to the bus stop from home, i looked up at the sky as usual and i was surprised to find a crescent moon and a million stars sparkling at me from up above..the sky was super pretty and i was just so happy to see all the bright, twinkling stars! haha

I hate NAPFA!!!

Kelly and I are slackers...the only way we r gonna contribute to our house for the track and field meet is to cheer as loud as we can for our classmates! lol

Disulphide aunties went to 1145 classroom during break today! So many memories in that classroom..haha..got reminded of the good old times when everything was sweet and well.. =)

Mrs Ong told me during chem lesson that her daughter's teacher's name is also kavitha and she looks like me with the same smile as me too! haha..then i thick skin purposely went to ask her whether the teacher is pretty and she was like
" Yah! Pretty!!" Hahahah! =)

I think i have a wierd sense of humour...liyi was telling me that i was becoming funnier and funnier these few days when i wasn't even trying to be funny..i was just being myself..lol..and when i really try to be funny, no one laughs or appreciates my efforts! lol

Happy belated 18th birthday to Sasha!! Hope that all her dreams and wishes come true!! =)

Tongue-tied?
Valentine?
Singles are HIP! =)

Shld have seized the opportunity but guess i was just too shy...

Shld i or shld i not? I dun want to regret any of my decisions.

2007-02-10T00:44:00.000-08:00

The neoprints that we took tgt on a fun filled friday!=) Frm the top left: Pei Shan sunshine, Lily Zhen, Steven number zero, Cheng En, ME, Suzy number one and Poah Sin! =)

My favourite favourite favourite neoprint!! Haha..cuz i think i look photogenic in this pic! And my number zero is beside me! lol..everyone else looks nice and happy too! =))

Anyway, congrats to all my juniors who did well in their O's! Today went to celebrate with yee shan after sch cuz she was so happy with her results! Haha..thx for the ice cream yee shan! I'm glad that ur satisfied with how u did! =) Ah choo! Cheer up pls! =) Heard that this batch did much better than ours..sincerely happy for them! At least skss isn't deteriorating! =) Expecting more pple frm my sec sch for JAE!! Yay! lol

McDo..Mcdonalds..ronald Mcdonalds..george washington..SUPERSIZE ME! ;p

2007-02-07T23:41:00.000-08:00

Finally returned to school after being sick at home yst! =) Haven't recovered fully but feel much better than earlier. Just want to thank all those who tagged and msged me to ask me take care. I seriously feel touched knowing that pple cared for me and missed my presence! =) Thx peeps!

Went to daybreak today instead of cheshire home for interact. Had so much fun with the kids there! =) Wish i could go again! thx to roy and amerlyn for instigating me to be daring! Hahaha...

Bio test tmr! And im so not prepared! Im super busy now! Haha..Valentines' day coming soon!! AJ calls it "Friendship" day! LOL =)

Wad's going on?

2007-02-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

I'm sick! Flu! Feeling horrible now and i've already used up so many tissue papers..so many trees wasted..lol..haiz..shld i go to sch tmr or rest at home? Tmr is a long long day and i dun want to spend it sniffing all the way! Dun want to spread to my classmates too! But then, if i dun go,i will miss out on so many things! Haiz..i shall see if i feel better tmr morning.

As most of u would know, S'pore won the ASEAN cup yst and i watched the match on tv! I still stick to my stand that skills-wise thailand has the better players! But i was jumping for joy when khairul Amri saved the day with his late solo goal! Haha..Go Singapore!!! =)

There seems to be nth to look forward to this week. Hmmz..I can't wait for the CNY break! I've got so many things to clear up..my room's a mess! Oh great! Now i have a fever..just great...I know i shld drink lots of water and rest! Haha..the usual remedy for flu. Water is the best medicine for everything! hahaha.

I love my mondays so much that even me being jealous didn't spoil it. I want to just forget it. Just let go and be normal..but its hard when ur so so near..

Just get lost from my thoughts

2007-02-02T23:16:00.000-08:00

Cross country today was FUN FUN FUN!!! =)
PUMA rawks!!! Haha..20/06 rawks!!! I think PUMA cheered the loudest out of all the houses! I love to cheer man! My class girls cheered till we had no voice! Enthu! haha..PUMA wasn't champion house but it's ok, it's alright! PUMA will fight, fight, fight during track and field meet! =) Congrats to cheetah house for being champions! Sharlene, 20/06 loves u for putting in ur best effort for the competitive run! =) Lastly, a special thx to KKK for "running" with me! LOL!

Most of 20/06 went to andy bro's house to rest aft the end of cross country..i was so excited to go back to andy's house again after so long! Haha..thx andy for inviting us!! =) Thx for the chocs and the yakult too! =) Oh..hmm..theres so many things to thank andy for today..we went to J8 to have dinner after that and i din have money so andy lent me..thx for that too! Andy rawks!! Project MESAHI luvs u andy!! hahaha.. We took neoprints after dinner! More than 11 pple squeezed into the picture..i think i look wierd in the pic but its ok cuz im just happy that i took neoprints with the other half of 20/06 whom i had not taken with in the last neoprint. This was the first time the disulphide aunties took neoprints together too! =)

Fridays are always filled with fun! Haha..I'm loving it! =) Tmr will be going to support skrcy during fdc! Yay! Hope i can wake up in the morning.. =) Having a busy weekend! Going for FDC and aft that for a wedding tmr..then have a public first aid duty on sunday morning till evening..then after that got tuition! Tutorials are gonna pile up!! I need good Time Management skills! My portfolio is lousy even though i have 3 ccas, maybe cuz i haven't included the red cross stuff inside and im slacking in tldds...and im not really taking steps to upgrade my portfolio! Wah..slacky kavi will work on her portfolio soon! =)

Now, my frenz know it when im pissed or sad! Its kind of scary cuz they can really find out wad im feeling by looking at my face! Haha..telepathy? That means im not acting anymore..my heart is on my sleeve..which means im kind of vulnerable too!! Haha..wadever it is, kavi loves disulphide aunties for knowing and understanding her! =)

2007-01-31T22:44:00.000-08:00

Singapore won the first leg finals!! =)

But then, do they really deserve it? Hmmz..i really dun think so! If u had watched the match u would know why im saying that. Of cuz being patriotic and stuff, my bro and i were supporting the Lions. But we were cursing the S'pore players half the time for their horrible soccer skills!! In my opinion, the Thais were so much better! Still, i'm extremely happy that we won this leg. =)

Had wheelchair training at cheshires' Home today. It was quite fun, learning the different ways of pushing a wheelchair. I was the only girl who screamed when i was lifted in the wheelchair by my partner! How embarrassing! Haha..there was this dragonfly that was flying ard the class during chem tutorial today and i made kelvin laugh by making a fool out of myself. LOL! I kept exclaiming and doing wierd actions whenever the dragonfly came near me..haha..oh..cheng en thinks that the gift i bought him is cool! And i can see that he really likes it..yay! I'm glad! haha..

My angel wrote me a letter. =) I think she's nice but we have so little in common. I think my angel and ze ling have alot of common interests! Haha..they shld get to know each other! lol

Kelly made me laugh lots today with her unique gift for her junior! LOL! Crazy girl!

The headache came back again! It lasted all the way from morning till chem tutorial lesson..haiz..i couldn't even raise my voice to speak..arifah said it must be lack of sleep or stress but i dun think so leh..im not feeling stressed and i think i have enough sleep! PLS dun come visit me tmr k Mr Headache! =x

Can i be?

2007-01-30T21:30:00.000-08:00

I've decided on sth.

Tuesday is the worst day of the week. At least for me. Lecture day and things dun happen my way and the day just seems so long. I was freezing cold during all the lectures today and i had a really horrible headache during chem and bio lect. It was so horrible that i almost felt like fainting. Frm yst till nw having headache on and off. I dunno the reason why..i usually have headaches if i dun drink coffee in the morning but i did drink coffee so i dunno the reason for this! =( I hope it goes away tmr cuz its difficult to interact during interact with a headache! lol!

My whole class is taking part in the cross country competitive race! LOL..i think its funny that im taking part in the competitive race cuz i can't run fast! haha..but kelly said we would not run so much so i guess its ok. haha..

20/06 is playing the angel and mortal game with 20/07! I hope that i have a good angel and mortal! =) Reminds me of nj last year! haha

I suck at public speaking really! I was a bad chairperson for speak ezee session today! Haha..screwed up alot..anyway, in my opinion i think that the best speaker in the class is arifah!! =) My class made the session into a total comedy so it was quite fun! Haha...

How come so many pple are starting to care so much abt their cip hours suddenly? I think its quite bad if u do cip just for the sake of the hours! Dunno why i like nv really care much abt my sch graduation cert..i din really take part in much of sch activities..quite low profile compared to sec sch! Haha..dunno lah..let me get good grades first and i'll worry abt cca records later. =x

Did make up pe with kelly and wee theng after mother tongue..my legs are aching! I have 2 more make up PE to complete! Jia you kavi!! lol

I think im gonna fail maths test. =( Demoralised. Geog and GP are goners. tutorials are piling up like last yr! I need to catch up!! I can't slack much during weekends already! Pink Ranger nv say die!!! lol

The worst things come when u least expect them to too!

2007-01-29T18:45:00.000-08:00

I would like to say:

I love KELLY!

I love PEISHAN!!

I love SUZY!!

haha..thx to kelly and peishan for accompanying me run 6 rounds at my pace! Loves to suzy for running extra 2 rounds with me which means she ran 11 rounds today!! Running alone is sad and im glad i have u pple with me! =)

I realise that usually mondays are my 'High' days! lol..wierd isn't it..i thought pple usually have monday blues and stuff..but i dun! =) Today was a happy day! Things went well..i reached sch early! At 7 am..which is way too early. haha..im afraid of getting CWO! =) One more time and thats it! PE wasn't really fun today..it was dreadful..i missed liyi..i want to play 7-up..but i still was happy cuz i could interact with my class girls! =) Haha..renes or someone on seeing my shoes and watch said sth like every two weeks got brand new kavi or sth like that. LOL..im not rich! I just 'borrow' alot of my sibling's stuff. Haha..but it was nice being noticed anyway..lol.

After PE had chem lab..was quite sian..but it still din spoil my mood! Somebody almost did though..hmm..i shld be more patient..i shld not be irritated easily. =x
Had lunch with the class and aft that found a classroom to sit in during our break. I kept listening to my favourite tokyo drift song! lol..its addictive! But some pple find it irritating! lol.

During gp had the speak ez thingy..it was more like speak difficult! lol..i was perspiring, my cheeks were burning and my heart was beating fast by the time i ended my speech! OMG! Wad is it with me and speeches? I always get so nervous whenever i have to speak in front of a grp even though its just my classmates! Anyway, im just glad that my turn had ended! Xavier was really funny during his turn! Haha..my class has quite a number of entertaining speakers! lol. Mrs Siva told the class sth towards the end of the lesson which made me very sad..haiz..why again? =(

But anyway, i tried not to think too much abt it cuz if it has to happen, then it will happen. =) Bio kind of cheered me up cuz we received our test results and i did better than i expected to do..it kind of motivates me. =) Was doing a very difficult grp work and ps kept on falling asleep..lol..hilarious. I'll never dare to sleep during bio lesson..haha..was happy when bio ended cuz i culd go home with suzy! =)

Maths test tmr! I want to pass! If not i'll feel as though im wasting my parents' money! $250 for 4 sessions of tuition! O..b4 i forget,Happy Birthday to Cheng En!! =) I'm turning 18 in abt 3 months. =)

You made my day. =)

2007-01-28T21:22:00.000-08:00

Hahaha!

I dunno why i post these stuff really! Looking at eileen's tag in my tagboard made me wonder why i wrote that sentence. I'm sick of acting happy and being nice? OMG! When do i ever i act happy? haha..i'm happy when im happy and i'm sad when im sad. I dun act and i dun think i know how to act. lol. I think pple just think in an absurd way when they r feeling emo! Next time i smile at u, its real! My eyes will sparkle and u will just know that its frm the heart! LOL! i sound mushy..but anyway..yupz..i dun like to be emo! Haha..take carez everyone! Luv ya all! =)

Just know that if i ever offend u or snap at u or anything, its not the real me k! Its my evil twin who has possessed me! Haha.. =)

*I like maths tuition! It gives me hope! =)

2007-01-28T18:10:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling emo again.

Empty.

My room's a mess and i dun have time to clean up.

i was given more than two weeks to study for maths test yet im going to tuition in 10 mins, unprepared.

I was planning to wake up at 10 am but ended up sleeping till 12.30 pm.

Sometimes, im sick of acting happy,being nice.

My mind's just not with me...

Hmmz..it'll go away soon.

2007-01-26T20:06:00.000-08:00

Fun Filled Friday!! =)

Today's civics lesson was fun! Mr Hong asked the guys and the girls to make a list of the characteristics they want in their dream girl or guy just like one of my previous blog entries and we were asked to present it. I was so excited abt that activity! lol..the discussion we had after that was quite thought provoking too...some guys just din seem as interested as the girls though...lol..Went down with liyi to buy food after civics.. I like the sandwich frm the Good News Cafe! It's so nice and filling! But expensive though..haha..hmmz..after civics had gp lesson...then sth happened..gp venue had been changed to container block and i had msged the whole class the day b4 to inform them..telling them to take note so that the info wuld not have to be repeated again. Then..i think damien and poah sin forgot or sth and they were walking in the wrong direction...then i suddenly shouted at damien, " Damien! Where are u going? GP is at rm 411! Did u get my msg?" sth like that.. and damien apologised to me..then i just dashed off to the container block without even addressing his apology! and i think i sounded angry cuz liyi told me so..lol..OMG! How can i shout at my classmates like that?! I dunno why i keep getting easily irritated nowadays...haiz..dunno wad's wrong with me seriously! =(

Was quite sian during gp..doing compre qns is boring and exhausting! I think that Mrs Siva is very nice! She din even scold me and pei shan for crashing the other gp lecture yst..she kind of asked me in a sarcastic tone, " Kavitha, How was yesterday's lecture? " lol..and everyone laughed..then i told her abt how it was better than the other lecture and how comfortable i felt there and all..Then she just told me to remain with the lecture grp if i really feel comfortable there! Love her loads man!! =) Cuz really..i was so happy aft knowing that i dun have to attend horrible gp lectures anymore! =) I'm sure SunShine is as happy as me too! =)

Passed a note to damien during chem lecture to apologise for snapping at him. I dun think damien and poah sin were pissed at me or anything so all's well! But im still confused abt wad happened to the nice me this week! I'm so grumpy! lol..hmmz..then after chem had maths and then sch was over for the day! Suzy and I were planning to go to J8 to buy her S.H.E cds and stuff but ended up being a fun filled gang outing..lol.. Had lunch with liyi, suzy, steven, poah sin, cheng en and pei shan at Long John Silvers!! We walked ard a bit and took super nice neoprints too!! =) Basically had fun lah..though i was not really in a "high" mood..heez..thx for the outing peeps! =)

After that i went to compass point to vist Mr Ah Choo...was walking towards some other place but i heard an unmistakable deep familiar voice and changed direction and finally spotted him! lol..and hmm..my telepathy with him is much better than i actually thought it was..happy working derek!! =)

I dunno wad is it with me and pink stuff! As in i'm not really obsessed with that colour or anything..i like colours like purple and blue too..but everytime i wanna buy any stuff, i always buy it in pink! Even when i dun want to cuz i think being too pink is disgusting! haiz..just can't help or control my affinity with that colour. Anyway, was walking past this shop in rivervale mall a few days ago and i saw a pair of pink shoes with pink laces! And it was a special offer! Thought that it was quite a gd buy so told my mum abt it. Thought she wuld not allow me to buy it but i was lucky cuz yst was my parents' pay day and they agreed to pay for half the cost of the shoes! But to pay for the other half, i wuld have to starve for abt 5 days! lol...i was willing to do that so went to buy the shoes today! Haha..i'm happy that i have new shoes!!! =) But im sad that im broke now! =(
well..to get the rainbow, u have to make it thru the rain! =)
I feel like im rubbing salt on someone's wounds..im sorry if i am!

So many girls are chasing aft my bro in sec sch now and he comes home and tells me stories of them! I just feel disgusted by some of the kids nowadays really..lol..they r so...yucks..haha..and my bro is sick these few days..busy too! Hope everything goes well for him and hope he stays good! =)

Painfully shy..i dunno why.

2007-01-26T00:15:00.000-08:00

Hello!!

I can blog at last! Woah! Had been so busy this week..coming home at 9pm everyday! Today was the earliest i came home this week..ard 6.30pm..and im glad for the break! =) It was an eventful week indeed! Hmmz..Wed's bio lab was scary! I din know how to cut the radish discs properly and mrs lim kept staring at the way i cut! So pressurising! I kept cutting the wrong dimensions..haha..i think she culd not tahan watching me struggle with the radish..she finally demonstrated to me how and which dimension to cut the radish to..lol..so throw face! And arifah said i looked very flustered and nervous during lab...haha..i thought so too!

Suzy received S.H.E concert tickets frm her friend! I'm so happy for her! She was so sad that she wuld not be able to go for their concert and now that she can, its great! Haha..Had college cip meeting with the teachers and council aft sch on wed..i could not concentrate cuz i kept thinking abt the intra-house games that was coming up after that..lol..liyi said that it seemed as though one of the teachers kept picking on me..haha..i din really care i think cuz i was used to him doing that to me..anyway, singapore's coasts does have alot of seashells! If anyone doesn't believe me, then i can go collect and show them! lol

After the meeting most of my classmates went for the intra house captain ball and bball..we din win but we had loads of fun! But some drama happened in between lah..lol..i think its quite an embarrassing drama on my part..i shld stop making mountains out of mole hills next time! It's just so hard for me to stay angry at anyone for long..i try to so that they'll know im angry but they always end up not knowing..haha..and i always end up forgiving and forgetting..haha..just wuld like to thank poah sin and eileen for being there with me during that time. =) I dunno wad i wuld have done if i was alone.. lol.. If u asked me to do it all over again, i still will! Wad is life without drama huh? lol

Cheng en hurt his leg while playing captain ball..i hope it recovers soon! His birthday is coming and he has to get such a painful gift..tsk tsk tsk..

TGIF! Fun Fridays! Can be dismissed early! And suzy asked me to out to j8 with her..and maybe i'll go down to sk after that? So long haven't gone..i miss them! =) AJ cross country is coming soon! I'm gonna run after like 3 yrs cuz i was always one of the firstaiders during the cross country at my sec sch..lol..liyi said i could go to her house after sch on cross country day! I'm happy cuz it wuld make things super convenient for me and i love her house and her family! =) Thx dear! =)

It's just infatuation. It'll go away soon.

All i need is some attention and care from you
and i'll be happy for the rest of the time. =)

2007-01-22T20:36:00.000-08:00

Today was my first "high" day since sch started! So high till i kind of attracted some attention..lol..i love having PE with my class! 7 up during pe was fun! =) Thx for holding my hand while sprinting liyi! Luv ya and i'm sorry for snapping at u today! =) I joined Intra-House Captain's Ball Com together with quite a number of girls frm my class! Yay! I'm excited cuz im gonna play my favourite game! haha..Playing copycat with suzy was fun too! It's so hard to copy her laughter! haha..Today aurelia told me sth that i thought was funny..i think I was saying sth mean abt someone who walked past us..and she asked me to shhhh in case the person heard me..then i told her its ok cuz he can't hear my voice. And she said sth like, " No he can hear ur voice cuz u can't whisper rmb? Ur whispering is like talking and ur talking is like shouting!" lol..i thought that was quite a funny thing to say abt me. Haha..and i realise that i have a tendency to sound rude. Dunno if its the tone or volume of my words but i hear alot of " Wah..so fierce!" and " Why are u so rude?" nowadays. haha..its not on purpose k so dun be offended if i sound rude! =)

I just couldn't stop smiling during lessons today and i have no idea why! haha..how i wish everyday could be like this..me in a super duper happy mood! =) Its gonna be a long day tml and if i have the same mood i had today, i could battle any kind of bad stuff that comes my way! =)

The best things come when u least expect them to! =))

You make me happy

2007-01-21T22:03:00.000-08:00

Hello!

I'm preparing a special #400 entry! Its entitled, "First Impressions" and ur right! Its gonna be abt the first impression i had of my classmates and some other pple! I think it's gonna be interesting so watch out for it kies! Haha..Hmmz..there seems to be nth to blog abt for now though..Took some quizzes and here are the results..lol..i agree with most of them! =)

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed.
With respect to money, you are a bit stingy.
You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's" The True You?

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catchProblem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend?

You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One!

Generally, you're very happy being a single woman.And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem.Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy.You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man!

Do You Need a Man?

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

2007-01-18T22:05:00.000-08:00

OMG! WTH! HOW DARE HE!! I'M ANGRY! SO SO ANGRY! Kind of sad too..haiz..how dare he talk to me that way..i hate it when pple shout at me like that..just cuz he's a teacher he can talk anyway he wants to me? He sounded so irritated and pissed! As though its my fault that things dun turn out the way they r supposed to! Its not my fault! Then why scold me! He just spoilt my day! I'm just an organizer after all and i'm trying my best to do the stuff that im required to do! Why can't he just understand that! So unreasonable and dominating!!! I need to cool down man..i need to relax..but i just feel so ARRRH now! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haiz..i feel better after blogging but i still feel troubled! Wad am i going to do if he scolds me again regarding this matter? Wad if he thinks i'm an incompetent organizer just cuz i couldn't foresee this problem..haiz..kind of disappointed in myself but its partly their fault too..they din tell me earlier abt this whole issue!!!! Haiz..there goes my friday..i guess it wouldn't be a happy one. =(

Hmmz..i feel like there's so many things happening ard me but i just dun feel like caring abt them..i guess i'm really a coward..i like to run away frm stuff instead of facing it head on..i'm so caught up with work that i just dun feel like socialising and fretting over insignificant things..i dunno..haiz..i dun even know wad im feeling..seems like everywhere i turn there's a problem lurking..even in friendship which is supposed to be comforting. Haha..maybe i'm starting to feel emo..the aftermath of my anger perhaps..hmmz..

Suzy: It was great having that talk with u today number one! But as usual, i can just listen. No matter what, i just want you to know that i'm always here to listen to ur problems. i promise that i will never be irritated. Not at you dear. Not at anyone of you. Ur not alone. You've got me! You've got the three of us! =) Luv ya!

Liyi: U know sth my dear angel? I voted for u for the "Best friend at all times of need" award cuz u were really there when i needed to lean on someone. My pillar of strength shld never fall. Dun give up dear..dun lose ur zest for life! You mean so much to me..u dunno how much! Muacks! =)

Aurelia: Sis! U know sth? I was angry at u today! lol..and i think u never noticed. Dunno how come i just ended up talking to you..guess ur just too nice for me to resist.. haha..Possessive me is just craving for more of ur attention..if u know wad i mean...I know ur trying. =) I love u sis! So much so that i become sad when ur not by my side! =)

Disulphide aunties will falter but never break! =)

On a lighter note, the fact that i kept changing my bag became a big issue in class! lol..first i had my pinky bag, then my sister's bag, and then now my bro's backpack. Then alot of pple noticed that i changed my bag cuz they r not used to seeing me wearing backpack! lol..my classmates said i look wierd and it doesn't suit me! Haha..so i decided to stick to my old smiley face bag again! I think its more ME lah..according to arifah..lol..

It's the little things in life that make you happy. =)

2007-01-16T00:52:00.000-08:00

Hello!!

I want to thank suzy for accompanying me during pe today! I was so touched..luv ya number one!

Was thinking abt a couple i know and i realise that i kind of respect their relationship. That's new since i dun really have a good opinion abt BGR at this age. Hmmz..i feel that the girl really knows how to divide her time between her bf and her frenz and the guy gives her the freedom to do what she thinks is right. Ultimately, they know their limits and never cross the line. And i adore the both of them! So i pray that their relationship lasts forever and ever. =)

Congrats to Yee shan for passing VIP too! =) Btw,
Ah Choo! I miss you and our genuine friendship! lol..and yea i'll rmb that ur birthday is on the 17 feb..we need a good long chat soon! =)

The zip in my pinky bag spoiled! I can't use it anymore so borrowing my sister's bag to sch first..haiz..pinky bag's lifespan is so short... =(

Today i told someone that im frm 20/06 and they were like, "Oh! The most enthu class! U all always cheer during pe right! I think ur classmates r really supportive of each other!" Haha..i was glad to hear that and it makes me even more proud of my class! =)

How come pple get sad so easily? The feelings and emotions of the pple ard me affects me alot. I think it affects everyone actually..as in u will feel happy when the pple ard u r happy and u will feel sad when the pple ard u are sad. It's difficult to be smiling when the pple ard u are frowning right..hmmz..so my point is that i just hope that everyone will always look on the bright side of life! Maybe it's easier to say than do but i believe its possible! =)

So near yet so far..

I'm getting distracted.

It saddens me to see him talking, flirting, laughing, playing with someone else. Esp her.

It doesn't feel gd to be jealous.

One of my negative traits-i think i'm too possessive.

How come i'm feeling this way? Haiz..

Does he even care abt my existence? I wonder...

Hmm..I realise that my last para and my italics contradict! lol..hmmz..It's just a phase. Ignore.

2007-01-14T15:24:00.000-08:00

CONGRATS TO MR CHOO HENG HAN DEREK FOR PASSING OUT FROM VIP SUCCESSFULLY!!

Ur such an idiot and i can't stand you ah choo! Imagine bluffing me that u din make it! As though i will believe u like that! ha! Tough chance..so fake! After all these years, u think i will believe ur msgs? Hahaha...Crazy ah choo! =P

Newspaper collection cip yst at sengkang with interact was tiring! I trained my muscles to carry really heavy stuff! lol..I love amerlyn! She's funny,friendly and simply great! lol..not mentioning strong too! She can carry twice the stack of newspapers i carried and still look glamorous! lol..Sengkang residents r nice pple! I'm so proud of those who contributed their old stuff willingly! =) I love my new baby tigger! lol

Congrats to my sis for getting the edusave scholarship award! Keep it up sis! =)

I want a longer weekend! =)

2007-01-12T19:15:00.000-08:00

It has been raining all day..my shoes are wet..my pinky bag is wet..and everything inside my bag got wet as well! There goes my organizer, foolscapt pad and the tutorials i placed in my foolscapt pad! That's what u get for buying cheap bags..lol..anyway, it was a relatively fine week. The only lecture i fell asleep in was geog. I'm trying to do all my hwk on time and i'm attempting to focus during lessons unlike last yr...some distractions here and there but overall i think im coping well. =) Interact exco is getting busier. We have many upcoming projects to worry abt..cca carnival day the day b4 yst was great..i kind of had fun even though i was like stuck at interact booth the whole time...haha..i think its cuz i got to talk to alot of j1s..hmmz..gp lecture today..haiz..i couldn't wait for it to end! =(

It just took one week for me to have 2 eyecandies in aj..lol..one is cuz i keep seeing him ard sch..everywhere i turn i see him..lectures, canteen, bookshop..everywhere..and i think he is kind of cute too..so yea..lol..the other one is Mr Red bag whom i kind of already saw last yr..and my frenz think he is not gd looking at all. lol..hmm..my taste is wierd. Did not take long to replace harimau..haha..this time im not gonna let my eyecandies distract me frm my academic life! lol

I love sch! =) I love my frenz! =)

u always used to make me happy..now ur the reason i'm sad.

2007-01-04T23:54:00.000-08:00

2nd day at sch. I'm still ok..lol..haven't fallen asleep at any lectures yet. Almost did during GP tutorial today but din. Haha..I'm separated frm my class for gp lecture! So unfair..i dun like this banding thingy..i dun think my promo marks was an accurate gauge of my abilities in gp! Haiz..dunno how im gonna survive the 2 hour lecture tmr..hmmz..at least i have pei shan to accompany me..being alone would be worse. I'm glad to see all my classmates again! Missing the four who went for orientation but i know i'll see them soon! =) Heard frm my friend that A'level would be earlier this yr as there would not be first three months next yr anymore. Which means we will get our results earlier too...no more 6 free months of holiday to work! No wonder teachers r rushing the syllabus already..i have so many upcoming tests!! =( Hmmz..can survive!! Sure can!

I have so much new stuff for the new year...went shopping with my cousin and somehow made my parents give me money to buy new bag, new hairband, new pencil case, new earrings, new stationery, new socks and new watch! Brand New ME!! lol..Still rmb the first day of sch when i went to parade square, feeling so sian when suzy saw me and her whole face changed! Haha..i was so glad that she was so glad to see me!! =) Haha..she likes my pinky bag! Yay!!

I'm gonna try to do my tutorials regularly from now onwards! Im gonna stay awake during all lectures! Bless me...im gonna clear my doubts asap instead of procrastinating! I'm gonna be a good girl! I'm gonna pass my A'levels with flying colours!! =)) That's kind of my academic resolution for this yr..haha..wun be blogging regularly since im going into intensive study mode this yr but i will try! =)

Happy schooling everyone!! =))

2006-12-31T04:20:00.000-08:00

Hello!!

The date today is december 31 and the time now is 3.50 am. Approximately 20 more hours for the new year to arrive! Time really flies huh..it seems like just yst that i finished my O's and went to work at suntec, had my first three months at nj and spent the rest of my J1 months at aj. One of my sec sch maths teachers used to tell me that jc is a real quick process..it will end in the blink of an eye. Although just a year passed, i feel ultimately this will be true. At this moment, i feel fortunate to be who i am and to have what i have. Life is to be cherished and not to be wasted. I will cherish the new year. =)

Hoping that 2007 would be a great year for everyone! Will be turning 18 in 4 months and 5 days! Haha..i dun feel 18 though..it seems like such a mature age and yet i still feel so clueless abt so many things that happen ard me..maybe i've to start acting my age soon..lol..J2 is gonna be a tough journey but still im looking forward to it! If u want the rainbow, u have to make it through the rain. Lol. I think im gonna have a real hard time making it but then, there can be miracles and i wun give up. =)

In case i dun have the time to blog again, Happy New Year to everyone!!!! =) Happy belated birthday to eileen!! =)) and Happy advanced birthday to arifah!! =)) May all their dreams and wishes come true!! =) Hmmz..the time now is 4.15 am and im still not feeling sleepy..lol..thats wad u get for waking up late in the afternoon..haha..i'd better go and try to sleep then!! Bye Bye Year 2006!! I'll miss you! =)

Time is of essence

2006-12-23T23:06:00.000-08:00

Kelly asked me to do this quiz thingy so im doing it! =)

1. Single, taken, or crushing?- Haha..erm..single but unavailable. Actually its kind of complicated.

2. Are you happy with ur life now?- As happy as i can ever be! =)

3. When you meet the right person, will you fall for him/her fast?- Hmmz..I dun think so. It takes alot of time to really fall for anyone deeply cuz wad seems right at one time may seem wrong at some other time! =)

4. Have you had ur heart broken?- Into a million pieces...haha..no lah..Never..My heart is still intact and i dun want it to break! =)

5. Do u believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?- NO

6. Would u talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?- If i find it in my heart to forgive him.

7. Have u talked to another person about marriage before?- Yupz!! I talk abt marriage alot to close frenz! lol

8. Do you want children?- Yea! Twin boys and a girl! =P

9. How many?- Haha..twin boys and a girl equals to 3!! =)

10. Would you consider adoption?- If i really have to adopt, then why not!

11. If someone likes u right now, would u accept?- Hmmz..yes and no..i might like him back but i wun get into a relationship. Dunno if that makes sense..lol

12. Do u enjoy getting into relationships?- Dunno cuz i'd never been in one but i dun think i will enjoy it. thank you very much. lol

13. Be honest, what did you and ur ex do?- Haha..refer to the previous answer!

14. Do you believe in love at first sight?- Nope, infatuation perhaps.

15. Are u romantic?- Haha..i think i am! =)

16. Do u believe u can change someone?- Yup! I believe true love makes the world go round! lol

17. If u could marry somewhere,where would it be?- Singapore so that all my frenz can come to my wedding! =)

18. Do u easily give in when ur fighting?-I think so..i love peace.haha..

19. Do u have feelings for someone right now?- Hmmz..thats a difficult qn and im not answering that. haha..

20. Have you ever wished you had someone, who loves you?- Always and forever. =)

21. Have you ever broken a heart?- Haha..nope..im nice. =)

22. One day, if your best friend falls in love with the he/she you're deeply in love with, what would you do?- Let the best woman win. All is fair in love and war. =)

23. Are u missing someone right now?- Yup, i miss loads of pple! =)

I luv 20/06! =))

2006-12-23T00:36:00.000-08:00

Hello!

Shall make a quick post!

Went shopping at vivocity with my family! I prefer compass point! =x

Christmas party with 20/06 was awesome!! =) I received a gift frm suzy during the gift exchange and i like it! Thx suzy! Hope kelly likes my piggy! Our gift exchange was kind of fated! =)

The next day, i went to sentosa with my family!! Being in the cable car was cool! We played in the beach and i took loads of pics with my cousin! =)

Today had SL reflection with my class..it was fun!! Haha..the three hours really flew by! Thx to pei shan dear for the chocs! =) Chem tutoring has finally ended today! Wei quan was a good tutor although he kept bullying me! Thx to him for being so patient with my faults! =)

My brother got into sengkang sec! and i think he wants to join red cross too! Seems like my siblings are following my footsteps..lol.

New scandal in 20/06! Go visit MY gossip thread at class forum 20/06! =)

Tmr going to escape theme park with my cousin! Yay!! =)

HOMEWORK--> 10 more days to the start of school!

2006-12-18T23:03:00.000-08:00

I'm busy showing my cousin ard s'pore and taking care of my grandfather so that explains why im not online much and why im not blogging much.

I haven't started on chem and gp hwk yet! =(

I like the stories that my grandfather tells me! He has nice stories abt old old singapore! =)

20/06 christmas party is ON! I'm looking forward to it! Going gift hunting tmr! Thx liyi dear for lending ur house! luv ya! :)

It's gonna be a rainy christmas!

Ur a crush, not an eyecandy! =))

2006-12-16T15:08:00.000-08:00

Hello!! I'm back! =D Kids pirated camp is over! I'm seriously missing the kids loads! They r such a adorable bunch of pple! lol..so now let me blog abt the camp that my class organized! =)

We went to carecorner first to meet the kids. My team is the RED TARTANS!! It consists of 6 cute little kids..im their grp leader, together with my number zero, steven and my brother-in-law, boon ping! And wad i thought became true..it ended up being that i took care of one and the other took care of me! lol..We had ice breakers with the kids at the playground near carecorner first..BP clicked with the boys fast! I took a longer time to click with the kids but i did click with them by the time the camp ended. lol. The groups made their treasure chests during the ice breakers and my grp was the only grp that the GLs never lifted a finger to help with the making of the box..lol..we let them work independantly and the treasure chest turned up to be quite nice!! My grp's guys are really creative! There's this boy whose english name is jacky...he's so so cute and innocent..can melt when u hear him talk! lol..i was not so high during the ice breakers and the rest of the programme on the first day of kidz pirated cuz i had just returned frm one day of red cross camp and i was sooo exhusted cuz i only had 45 mins sleep the night before. Oh..talking abt rc camp..congrats to the VIs and the NCOs for successfully planning out and executing the camp! I enjoyed myself on the first day! Quite sad that i couldn't come for the night trail and bbq on the second day but at least i could come one day so its ok! I'm starting to see potential in the sec 2 cadets already..hopeful abt the future! =)

kkz..lets return to kidz pirated..after making the treasure chests, we went inside carecorner to have lunch. Erm..the lunch wasn't that nice actually..it was a healthy meal but the taste was horrible..lol..most of the meals turned out to be like that-bland and tasteless. lol..i really think carecorner shld give their kids better food..haha..but the kids were really nice..they din complain abt the food at all..even when i told my grp that i din like the food they told me, " Dun like also still must eat right..food is impt." LOL! I was so guilty..i shld have thought that way! =x Anyway, after that lunch we boarded the bus frm care corner to the boys'/girls' brigade campsite at sembawang..its better than red cross campsite! lol..I shared the same bunk as aurelia, liyi, wee theng, kelly and sharlene together with the some of the little girls.Slacked at the bunks a while before we walked to sembawang park for the telematch between the grps. =)

The telematch was fun! It consisted of abt four games if im not wrong..red tartans won alot of points by winning the games! =) We cheered lots too! Steven taught the kids fun cheers that we used throughout the three days at camp.It was raining during the telematch! =) Next, GLs helped the grps discuss their performance for campfire night...my grp was so enthu on doing a scary skit! lol..they camp up with a skit on a vampire and 2 detectives..lol..was so fun watching them rehearse and stuff. The thing i like abt my grp is that they r really self-motivated and determined to do well in wadever they do..hehe..they did the whole skit with minimal help on GL's part. =)

You can't deny the fact that children being children will always be childish..lol..the boys and girls din want to hold each other's hands during the learning of the Mambo rock dance..was so difficult to help them learn the dance cuz the space and music we had wasn't good enough..but steven still somehow managed to teach them the dance..haha..after dinner (bleah!), we had nightwalk at sembawang park! Nightwalk was tiring but fun! Red team had the never-say-die attitude..they din give up although there were numerous times during the nightwalk that they went in the wrong direction and ended up not being able to find the clues in the fastest time. Steven and i had to try so hard to keep our mouths shut when our grp walked in the wrong direction..lol..we came in 3rd for nightwalk but the kids still din lose their vigour. =) Din join my class to watch High school musical movie after the kids slept cuz i was too sleepy and i had already watched it. So went to sleep ard 1.30 am i think..the rest only slept ard 3am. I liked to sleep in my bunk cuz i had no difficulty at all..not cold, not warm, not noisy and not that much of mosquito bites too. Slept well and woke up at 6 am the next day to get ready for morning exercise.

Sharlene led the kids in their morning exercise. They played captain ball, my favourite. lol..the kids dunno how to play! haha..we had to keep telling them not to run with the ball. lol. After that we had treasure hunt at sembawang park..treasure hunt was fun cuz it was much easier than nightwalk as each grp had a map! My grp was the champion for treasure hunt! We found the ultimate treasure which was hidden in the playground! None of the other grps could find the treasure in time..lol..we were super lucky! lol..had fun going ard the different stations during treasure hunt together with the red team GLs! The way xavier handles children is funny! lol..he was so stern with them..haha..PS gets bullied by the kids! LOL..no kid listens to andy! The other game masters were just as funny. haha..treasure hunt rawks cuz red team won! =))

We learnt the friendship dance, campfire songs and the theme song to get ready for the campfire that was coming up that day. I was so high by then..love cheering! The kids cheered enthusiastically too! =)) After that went to help aurelia with the preparation for cookies baking..lol..the cookies we made din taste like cookies at all! The baking became very chaotic as all the kids fought to stir the mixture and decorate the cookies..but i think the objective was met and the kids had fun! Well done skills com!! =) thx aurelia and BP for cleaning up after that! =)) lol..The BBQ food took long to prepare..the food pple were busy preparing food for everyone..thx to sharlene, BP and pei shan who were so enthu abt feeding me during dinner. haha..i felt so touched when pple kept asking me whether i had eaten. lol..I played some mini games with the kids during dinner to kee them occupied. =)

Soon came the long awaited campfire!! =) All the facilitators were looking forward to it! It turned out to be a success! I had alot of fun really, cheering and singing and playing games. The emcees were great! =) All the grps performed their mini skits and stuff during campfire..red team presented its vampire skit too! lol..i think they did great! Jacky fell down in the process but he's ok so everything is well! Hmmz..liyi won the bet! She hugged cheng en!lol..so kelly and i had to kiss the floor and we really did! Kelly kissed it two times, once to accompany me..thx kelly! lol..The floor was sandy! haha..20/06 cheered for nice mr Hong for treating us dinner and we cheered for ourselves for the good job we did during the two days. =) The champion grp for the whole camp is........RED TEAM!!!! lol...so happy that my team won! They really do deserve it! Hahazz...all the kids in my grp said they enjoyed the camp! They said they din want to leave camp. I asked jacky, if there was to be another camp like this wad other things would u want in the camp and he said that he wants steven, BP and me to be in the camp...lol..Donovan, another cute little boy said that he liked every single thing abt the camp and that he was sad to leave. All of them wanted my autograph and contact details! Yay!! lol..i was so touched by the stuff that the children did and said! =)

I feel that the GLs were really gd at handling the kids..and the kids listened to us! =) All the GLs rawk!! Esp red tartans' GLs! lol..The other facilitators were great at wad they did too! =) I think the whole camp was a success and we got to know ourselves and our peers better thru it! Hopefully all of us had made a difference in the lives of the little hearts. =) Hope they remember us! A big muacks to 20/06!! =D Luv ya loads pple!! Thx SL com,for the organisation! =) Who's the best in AJ? 20/06!!!!!! =))

2006-12-12T19:36:00.000-08:00

HELLO!!

I'm going off and away for camp!! Staying one day at red cross camp and then 3 days at kidz pirated camp!
I'm gonna miss out on so many things cuz of the camp. Christmas party at Cheshires Home, Singapore red cross thanksgiving dinner, SKRCY's much awaited night trail and BBQ, my father's birthday and the trip to the airport to receive my relatives. Haha..I'm sure Kidz Pirated wuld make up for everything im missing out on! lol..Will only be returning on the 16th! So if there's anything impt, can contact me at my hp! =) Continue tagging kies! Thx and do miss me!! =))

Mr Right Now...lol

2006-12-11T13:11:00.000-08:00

THE NEW CHAIRPERSON FOR SKRCY IS MY SISTER!!! WAHAHAHA!! CONGRATS SIS!! I'M SURE UR LOVING IT!! =) lol..Being the treasurer still rawks though, dun u agree dear? haha..

Hmmz..this means she's gonna hog onto the com and the phone much longer than usual. =x And she wun spend anymore time with me talking cuz she wuld be too busy to care abt her family. =x She wuld also be so very stressed cuz she worries abt every single thing in red cross! =x It might also mean that her studies would be affected cuz frm wad i have observed, she hasn't touched her holiday hwk yet and now i dun think she ever will! lol..Prove me wrong yea sis!! =)

Haha..so anyway, today melvin was supposed to give the ncos a surprise and the surprise was the change in the committee posts..heez..i was the emcee for the surprise!! lol..it was so fun watching the faces of my juniors as i announced their new posts. Melvin said i did a gd job emceeing! hoho! =) I din stay at sk throughout though..came back home soon after that cuz i wanted to do hwk! Im a good girl! Yay! =)

My busy week has started! Haha..im gonna survive it! =)

Maybe i shld not have run away from that..just cuz im not good at it doesn't mean that i can't learn. Now, when they r all talking abt it, i feel like if i had gone i could have done a good job too. If i dun believe in myself then who will? But its too late to fret over anyway..i had made my choice a long time ago.

I dun mean anything to him. =x

Why did u leave me alone when u knew i was there just for u? =(

3 more days to kidz pirated which means 3 more days to see the pple whom i've missed! =)

2006-12-08T13:11:00.000-08:00

I brought my mother to KK hospital yst for her appointment and the gyneacologist whom attended to us was so young and good looking! lol..i realise that doctors like to talk VERY fast..haha..and some r really nice and comforting! I like yesterday's doctor! heez..then my mother and i went to visit one of my father's friend at Tan Tock Seng..he was admitted in the ICU ward cuz of a heart attack..i knew him from so long ago..was quite disturbed to see him there. Life is so unpredictable.

Starbucks at TTSH offered free coffee yst! lol..my mother and i queued up to try their coffee! =) hmmz..my mother said that their coffee is not nice..she prefers the normal coffee from the coffeeshop. lol..i think so too! i wonder why it costs so much though..i will never step inside that type of restaurant unless pple want to treat me or sth. lol..we went by novena square after that and i walked past KFC on purpose..to see whether the good looking cashier was still there...to my disappointment, he was not there already! lol..seems like good things only happen once. =D

I woke up early today...10 am is early for me cuz i always wake up 12 plus! lol..and i did some maths! Yay! =) I'm having maths tuition later on today..i'm happy cuz at last im getting some extra help for maths..hmmz..but my tutor is kind of inexperienced cuz she just finished her A'levels. I really do hope that she can help me so that i can help myself! =)

Next week is gonna be a challenging week! Red Cross whole day on monday...interact meeting with RJ and CJ on tuesday...going for first day of red cross annual camp on wednesday..staying overnight..i know i wun be able to sleep though..lol..must wake up early in the morning the next day to rush to admiralty mrt station to meet my class for SL camp..3 day camp will end on the 16 and i wuld have no coffee to boost me this time round.I need coffee to be enthu!! =( After breaking camp on the 16, i have to rush to the airport straight after to receive my grandfather and cousin who wuld be arriving in singapore from india. Haha..then i've to like show my cousin around s'pore cuz this is the first time she is coming here..lol..that wuld be fun but time consuming. So yupz..im gonna be busy from next week onwards..being busy is better than slacking really but i wanna have some time to study too!! =)

2006-12-06T22:06:00.000-08:00

Red Cross gathering today at Pasir Ris Park!! I decided to go after much consideration and i really dun regret going!! It was pure FUN!! lol..i enjoyed myself loads! Even though quite few cadets turned up, those who did made the gathering worthwhile! Actually gayatri and pei jie being the organisers had planned out some games to be played..but then it was so hard to get everyone to play their games so i think one of them came up with the idea of playing frisbee! Wad a good idea that was! Cuz everyone became excited abt it..lol..yong xuan went to buy a frisbee with his own money...he's so nice..he said he will donate the frisbee to red cross room..lol..Then we started playing...lalala..i'm so pro! I think i helped to increase their level of enthusiasm somehow. lol..yong xuan is good at frisbee! We played monkey with frisbee and they purposely made gaya3 monkey...we made her run ard alot..lol..Only yong xuan, angie, nicole and I lasted throughout the game..the rest got tired and went back to our gathering spot halfway..hahaha...

After that, songwen and yong xuan started messing ard with the flour that the NCOs had bought for the games. Somehow it broke out into a big flour fight! lol..everyone was throwing flour at everyone..haha..was so fun to watch....angie was so enthu abt the flour...Jia hui and i were hiding from the flour throwers but zhi qi still managed to throw at us! After that a water bomb fight broke out!! Hahaha..it was so funny...everyone attacked zhiqi with water bombs cuz he kept attacking the others...song wen and yong xuan like my sis so much..lol..they drenched her until she was fully wet! I think she's just so fun to bully that they can't resist it! Haha..

xian li's mother cooked fried rice n my mother cooked hotdogs. Together, it made up the lunch for today! Everyone ate heartily. We also went to the beach to jalan jalan...Packed up ard 5 plus and then jia hui, nicole, yong xuan, song wen, pei jie, my sis and i went to have dinner at downtown Mac. We gossiped abt sk! =D Even the bus ride home was fun..pei jie told us funny stories abt herself. lol. I interacted with so many red cross peeps today. I'm happy!! They always make me happy...i rmb how early this yr, i always used to go down to sk to see the red cross pple to destress myself..haha..now can't do that much but i still cherish the times that i spend with them. =)

To those who din come today, u missed out so much! =P
Thx 6th batch ncos for inviting ur seniors down for the outing! U pple rawk!! Stay strong and stay committed! U will reap what u sow! =)
SKRCY, i guess i will always luv you even though i may have so many other affiliations. =)
Good luck to all the mosquitoes that sucked my blood today! May they all get diabetes! lol
Life seems wonderful when ur happy. =D
Take carez pple! =)

2006-12-04T23:44:00.000-08:00

I shall not blog much abt the SL trial run.

It went well and i enjoyed it loads. Very excited abt the real thing.

I LOVE the MAMBO ROCK dance that we learned! It's so fun to dance!! Its rare for me to say that cuz i dun like to learn dances! =x I like to be spinned ard!! =)

At last, the aunties got together again! No one was missing this time and so i was happy that we culd spend time together again. =)

Thx to nice Mr Hong for treating us to lunch! =)

I think the games committee will be the busiest committee during the SL camp! They have so much stuff to do..they did alot of hard work today! Well done! =)

Liyi said some stuff abt 20/06 in her entry abt the trial run. I would like to second that! Cuz i feel the same way as her! =)

I'm grateful to know such nice,wonderful pple. I'd always felt fortunate actually! =)

We'll only have one more short year together though... =(

Let's treasure each other! Let's cherish the memories shared! =)

2006-12-03T00:46:00.000-08:00

Liyi and I Went to aurelia's big big nice nice house to bake cookies for SL today! Her house is BIG, pretty and clean!! lol..i think everyone's house to me is nice lah..except for mine..haha..her mother is so nice! She kept smiling and laughing at wadever we did or said..lol..she gave us soo much stuff to eat and drink..i was bloated! lol..Then we tried baking the cookies with her help.It's not difficult..quite fun!! Haha..it turned out well..yummy choco chips! =) Then we went to aurelia's room to work on the skills proposal..crapped more than did work actually...lol...had fun and we managed to finish wad we were supposed to discuss! =) Hitched a ride in liyi's parents' car. Thx! =) They dropped me off at Outram mrt..but i still took ages to reach sk..haha..

Dedicated the whole day to SL..heez..i'm sure eileen will be proud of the once slack Skills Com! =) Haha..Busy Busy december! I once thought that in my organiser, December was quite empty..but it got filled up quite quickly! But i think other pple r busier than me! So i shld treasure the free time i have left! =)

2006-12-01T19:25:00.000-08:00

Today went to sch in the morning for interact meeting. And i was greeted by a blur classmate! lol..i shall not expose him here! =) We decorated the interact notice board during the meeting. I'm so bad at all those art and craft stuff so i din want to do any cutting or drawing..lol..until roy tsked me..so i helped with the outlining and the stapling of the hearts on the notice board. The board is quite nicely done! I'm proud of our work! lol....the exco likes to gossip and side track alot! Haha..sth fun and sth that i like. Yet i always end up being very quiet whenever in interact. I dunno wads wrong with me..haha..i need to open up to pple other than my classmates! So shy for what! lol..wierd kavi. Hmmz..maybe i was just being introvert. =) Oh yea..thx angel for watching over me!! Luv ya!! lol..hmmz..after doing up the board, we went to have an exco lunch at KFC again out of all places!! lol. Im getting sick of it already lah..haha..but yea..lunch was gd cuz annabel was funny! She kept bullying amerlyn! =D

1st of december already! I rmb the promise i made to myself...lalala...I'm determined!! I will show improvement!! Believe in me cuz i believe in myself! =)

2006-11-29T23:15:00.000-08:00

I dun like it when pple insult AJC! It may have its flaws but where's ur loyalty? Stop comparing aj to other jcs can..can be happy with what u have and make the best out of it? Haiz..its like one year already..can't believe that some pple still dun feel at home at aj. I'm pissed!! AJ rawks lah pls...just look at the positive side instead of focusing on its flaws and everything will be fun and good.

Anyway, went back to skss for training today.Hmmz..nth much to say..just wish that more of my batchmates would come down to visit so that i wun be so bored. lol. The unit attendance needs to improve! Yupz. Then Burger king changed the price of its student meal to $4.50!! So expensive!! and they din even inform me! lol. I still think KFC rawks in terms of affordability but too much KFC makes me sick! lol.

November is ending soon! I think i really dun deserve to be in a jc cuz i'm not hardworking! I promised to pull up my socks but my socks refuse to budge! I think im dead lah..i'm gonna end up having no where to go once i get my A'level results! Am i being negative or maybe i'm just realistic? Hmmz..i'm waiting for the hardworking,determined me to surface soon. lol. Lazy, slacky kavi will disappear on the 1st december!! Yupyup! =)

Promises, promises.

2006-11-28T17:28:00.000-08:00

This is just a random entry yah..haha..random is my middle name. =)

I used to think i had changed alot since i came to jc..but now i realise that i had never changed..in terms of appearance maybe..but my personality had always remained the same.I'm glad that i know my bad qualities and good qualities. knowing them allows me to improve myself in order for me to become a better person. So frenz, i'm very very receptive to constructive feeback so when i'm being rude, bossy, big-mouth, insensitive, irritating or anything else u will have to tell me! If not i will never know..i do appreciate honesty and straightforwardness alot..i'd rather u tell me sth and hurt me than u talk abt me behind my back. Yupz. Nth particular happened or anything..just some random thoughts.

I used to read alot last time. So much so that my parents had to scold me to put down the novels. Could not read much recently due to the hectic JC lifestyle. But since it's the holidays, i started reading and i really do enjoy it! Esp Horror and Romance novels. Haha..some things never change do they? Haven't written any poems in a long time..maybe cuz i dun have any inspiration since there are no more serious crushes..lol..

I believe that no matter what happens, it always happens for good. That's why i think being positive and looking at the bright side in life is extremely important to be happy and to succeed. Sometimes i get angry when pple behave as though it is the end of the world when they face small problems...sometimes pple dun realise exactly how fortunate they are to have the things they have...maybe cuz its human nature..i'm sure i might have been like that without myself knowing too...hmmz..but wouldn't it be better to approach life positively? Maybe that's why i rarely cry..even if i do, i dun let pple see me cry. Cuz i feel that tears are negative.They make the positive energy go out of you. Smiles are positive! =) They feed you with positive energy. Maybe that's why i smile even when i'm sad or pissed.

I know a friend who can't control his temper once he loses it. I felt so confused when i heard him talk abt the things he does when he is angry. Hmmz..how come its so hard to control ur mind when u shld be the one controlling it and not the other way round? I can't remember the last time i became angry. lol. maybe cuz it was too short-lived..or maybe cuz i wasn't angry at all...just unhappy.I think i'm quite good at controlling my temper though so i'd say ur really pro if u manage to make me lose it.

Oh! Happy Birthday to my dearest sunshine, Ms Tham Pei Shan! Hope that all her dreams and wishes will come true!! =)

I appeared offline.

He was online.

I came online.

His status changed to busy.

A mere coincidence or is someone avoiding me?

I knew this would happen. Sobz...

2006-11-26T23:22:00.000-08:00

Hello!

Today went to liyi's house for picnic! Only a few pple went but it was sooo fun! Hmmz..i dun think i will blog abt details cuz all the details are in liyi's blog..lol..im lazy to blog details..haha..will just summarise..Hmmz..Met liyi at Bishan mrt..all of us were late and she was kind of pissed..haha..i'm tired of being early always so i'm kind of always late nowadays..heez..Kelly, steven, weiquan and eileen joined us soon after..hmmz..wei quan was the latest..yupz..then we slacked a while at liyi's house..her house is so big and nice!! I like! She got so many soft toys and she has a piano too!! She plays the piano well!! She has so many nice books as well! I borrowed some home! Haha..My number zero cooked for all of us! So sweet right..lol..i fed him!! =) I feel like guys are much better at cooking than girls! lol..Then we chatted, played games at the hill near liyi's house and also played heart attack which was super fun! Kelly treated me ice cream when we were going home that time =) I love all of them soooo much!! Haha..i kind of really treasure them loads...I wanna stay like this forever..smiling, happy, positive and loved! =)

That's what friends are for...

2006-11-26T03:10:00.000-08:00

Went to Ms mel's wedding today. Met up with red cross peeps then went to her void deck. Was so happy to see so many familiar faces..lol..saw a few of my ex-classmates too...John sir came! Haha..long time nv see him..Ms mel was such a pretty bride!! Really hope that she has a happy married life! =) I din stay long there though..too crowded..lol..Spent the rest of the day with red cross pple at cp..went window shopping..lol..had dinner with ah choo and my sis... =) I had missed them..xw said i had changed loads..saw jh aft quite some time.. ah choo was wearing orange..lol..han lim put AJ first choice..hehe..im glad..some things made me unhappy though..but its ok. =)

Hady's debut album and taufik's second album is out!! I wanna listen to the songs! =) Taufik's "All because of you" is great! Whoever buys their album pls do lend me kies!

Its 3am now and im still not sleeping..dunno why..lol..class picnic tmr..dunno whether i really wanna go..suddenly like no mood like that..haha..i will make myself have the mood tmr morning.. =)

Why are all the contact lens solutions i use are always contaminated or infected?? Have to keep changing...so troublesome...

Ice Skating trip has been postponed..lol...bittersweet feeling...heez..Christmas party with 20/06!! Im excited!! =) First aid coverage for SL camp..i must be prepared!! lol..

Im in charge of Interact Chinese New year Celebrations!! Have alot of things to plan and prepare! Dunno where to start..lol..I need to contact the presidents of Guitar, CO, Wushu and Choir to put up performances at Cheshires Home for the celebrations but im afraid to talk to the presidents..wad if they reject me? Die...lol..Gotta start contacting them soon!!

Wish some guys would stop acting cool...

2006-11-25T00:02:00.000-08:00

I think i've become too trusting.

I tell stuff to pple that i usually never share.

I hope i dun regret opening up. Really.

I don't know wad i feel towards him and i dun think i want to find out.

Things are nice just the way they are. =) Dun wanna spoil anything.

Silence is the best sometimes. Shhh...

P.S: My italics are not meant to be explained.lol.They r too complicated.

2006-11-23T19:30:00.000-08:00

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20/06 chalet just ended! Thx to steven and renes for putting in sooo much effort to plan the class activities! I had alot of fun! Escape on the first day was thrilling and crazy as ever although it was like my fourth time there. =) Cooking lunch for the class was...enriching..lol..grp activities and games were great! My emceeing during thanksgiving night went generally well..working with cheng en was great! I talked to him so much more than i usually do and it was quite reassuring that he was there with me during thanksgiving although he somehow made me do all the talking towards the end of the event..lol..hmmz..dunno why but i lost my appetite for the whole 3 days..din really enjoy eating... i have so many blisters! I fell down and grazed my knee too! lol. I chatted with all the pple who were free and easy to chat with..thx to my coffee for helping me last the whole of the second day with only two hours of sleep! =) Had a heart-to-heart talk with aurelia and suzy! =) Did i tell them more abt my life than wad i shld say? It was the most honest i'd ever gotten with the stuff i was facing and i dun think i will ever share so much with any other grp of frenz...Wish that Aunty Oriental culd have joined us but its ok..sleep is more impt! lol..

I really din feel like coming home today cuz i enjoyed the stay with my classmates too much..i guess its nice to be away from home,having fun and slacking. It was really a gd retreat from everything else. =) Anyway, i think i showed off alot of my bad qualities during chalet. lol. i'm very vain and self conscious. i din want to wear my ugly spects in front of my classmates at all..lol..and i have to look at the mirror at least a dozen times a day..lol..i think im so irritating lah..aurelia had to keep assuring me that i wasn't unglam..lol..Then, im so bad at cooking and doing housework! Everytime steven and renes asked to help with cleaning up, i wuld sulk and sulk and sulk..then i wuld either hide from them and go to slack or i wuld do a reluctant clean up.lol. Then Everytime during breakfast, lunch or dinner i will become mute and switch off..haha..even sharlene asked me why i was so quiet.lol.Had a couple of mood swings too! Dunno whether anyone noticed. I'm so wierd sometimes.. =) But i still love myself lah..=) i volunteered to sleep on the floor so that the rest culd sleep comfortably on the bed! Hmmz..i think i did some other good deeds along the way too..but i dun think i will elaborate on them! Hehe...

I think my entry is not really flowing well but its understandable rite? Hope it is..anyway, i won the title of Ms Alluring Smile during the thanksgiving for the students..haha..seriously, i din know that i had a nice smile till i came to 20/06 and i din know that i smile alot too. Haha..anyway smiling is good cuz i believe that any problems faced with a smile can be solved and ur smile makes others happy cuz they have a reason to smile back at u when u smile at them! Heez..so i shall keep on smiling genuinely to make others happy. =)

Im missing my class already!! 20/06 has really nice individuals! Over the months, i have learnt to appreciate the strengths and accept the flaws of each and every one of my classmates. Although sometimes some pple can end up irritating me, ultimately i still do like them loads. Haha..and i do wish that all of them wuld always be enthu, happy and successful in wadever they do. =)

Kies..enough abt chalet..Today is the release of my bro's PSLE results! I was so anxious to know how he did when i reached home today..i'm quite happy with his results! =) He did better than expected! He got 20 more marks than what i expected him to get.. I'm so proud of him! Thank goodness he din fail his maths and english like he always did last time. =) Haha..another happy thing is that the dates for the red cross camp has been changed so it wun clash with SL which means i can still go for the first two days of RC camp although i wun be there for the promotion ceremony!! Going for two days is better than not going at all so im grateful. Thx to melanie and ah choo and whoever else who helped to change the dates! lol.

My body is aching...i haven't slept since i came back from chalet and i still have interact meeting in the morning tmr..lol..I feel like im neglecting my studies and november is ending soon which means i have like one more month to catch up on the stuff that i don't know. God, pls help me. =)

I'm always the first one to look away..why can't i hold a gaze longer?
Do ur looks mean anything, anyway? im confused.

I wish pple culd be more sensible and considerate sometimes.

I think its too much to hope for everyone to be postive abt everything. It's hard not to complain or be happy when ur agitated.Maybe if i had been in that position, i wuld be like that too?

2006-11-20T00:30:00.000-08:00

Mr Dream guy--> 20 characteristics about him!!

( anyway i dun think such a perfect guy exists so i think theres no harm writing it down..lol..i'll choose 5 pple to do the same thing too!)

1) Loves me! =)
2) Boy-next-door
3) Cheerful and always positive
4) Intelligent
5) Able to carry on lengthy, interesting, funny conversations with me.
6) Humorous
7) Has a cute smile! =)
8) Caring and compassionate
9) Able to cheer me up, make me smile. =)
10) Understanding
11) Non-domineering
12) Sweet and gentlemanly! =)
13) Good listener yet knows when to talk at the same time.
14) Must get along well with my family and frenz.
15) Plays either the piano, guitar or both!
16) Knows how to cook and do housework! lol
17) Does not smoke
18) Treats me like a princess yet knows when to let me take care of myself. =)
19) Never gets bored of me and i shld never get bored of him. =)
20) Likes window shopping/reading/writing poems/stargazing/watching horror movies/ or just has any other one or more common interests as me! =)

Five pple to do this quiz:

1) Zhen liyi
2) Kelly
3) Amerlyn
4) Suzy
5) Gayatri

Haha..thank you! =)

2006-11-16T23:56:00.000-08:00

I was rotting at home, killing my brain cells by doing maths today.

Haven't prepared my emcee speech for thanksgiving night yet! Cheng en!!!! lol

Sorry kelly! I wanted to send u some games for chalet from a camp i had last yr but i can't find the proposal! lol..so im still searching for games! =x

Will someone play hide and seek with me during chalet pls? lol..Can we all play pleeeeseee!!! i like to play hide and seek and catching although its childish..haha..cuz its fun! Be childish with me yea?? Yea!! =)

Ohh..we're going to escape theme park too!! My favourite!! lol..haha..but will be only spending half a day! Not enough!! I wanna spend the whole day there can! =)

Gotta learn how to bake cookies so that we can teach the kids during kidz pirated! Haha..fun!! Waiting for Boss aurelia to set a date! =)

Skating trip! i feel bittersweet..lol..scared and excited at the same time. haha..im looking forward to it nonetheless! =)

i need money for so many things! Can't wait for my parents' pay day..lol..25th november..so far away!

Liyi made a video on the disulphide aunties!! So pro! So nice! I was all smiles when i was watching it! lol..suzy posted it in her blog! =)

Maths peer tutoring again tmr. Sianz..lol..lunch date with aunties b4 that..yay!! Heez.. =)

Ms mel's wedding coming soon!! Going to meet pple i haven't met for a long time...hope i wun be uncomfortable or shy ard my old frenz and just be the brand new me! =) i miss Soarers!! really hope that the whole of soarers wuld be able to make it to our Ms mel's wedding!! =)

Hmmz..wad else? I can't rmb..lol..oh yes..o's are over!! I hope there'll be more good looking sec 5's who wuld come to aj next yr so that there are at least some j1s who can still be eyecandied cuz i feel that there is a lack in my cohort! lol..sorry guys! =)

One yr in jc is over so fast...hmmz..why must it be so quick? we're like gonna graduate next yr lah..thats just too fast! hmmz..i think i'll be sad if i think abt the future so i'd rather not think abt it! yupz! But i really do love AJ so much more now than i did in the beginning despite its weaknesses or flaws! I love my class and the pple ard me too! Just wish that i wuld be as happy as this in the future! =))

Why you? Im crazy to let it be you. Out of everyone, you! I really do have wierd taste after all. But i bet this feeling wun last. Im happy that it wun, actually.

When will i see him next?

2006-11-15T22:24:00.000-08:00

Does your name begin with: A U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: B You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your expression of endearments, and particular when it comes to love. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: C You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual, Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing without. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: D Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement's, sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often with sense of humour. When people bother to look deep inside they cannot resist what they see. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open attitude. You get jealous of other people and lose your temper . ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: E Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover) ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: F You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover. ___________________________________________________________

Does your name begin with: G You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is yourintellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to people. ___________________________________________________________

Does your name begin with: H You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move and equally cautious in your involvement's often as you believe that you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion for life. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: I You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of expression. You bore easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: J You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: K You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: L You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated ". ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: M You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes, though, running the gamut from insatiability to boredom with the whole idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing close to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live for the moment. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: N You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: O You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money and/or seeking we. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requiring the same qualities From your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: P You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances count. Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy...a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free of hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: Q You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and conversation to turn you on and keep you going. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: R You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: S For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: T You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights & romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon. When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated & teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way. You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into great things. You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may turn out to save your life. ! ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: U You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You see romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure, excitement freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are willing to put others feelings above yours. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: V You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense. --------------------------------- Does your name begin with: W You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic, idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for your lover. You like playing love games. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: X You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: Y You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forget the whole thing. You want to control your relationships which doesn't work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation. However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic. ---------------------------------

Does your name begin with: Z You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.

Hahaha! I found this in a email..thought its interesting so im posting it up! Copied and pasted straight so got the mistakes r not my fault! lol..hmmz..izzit true for u? =)

2006-11-15T22:19:00.000-08:00

HELLO!!

I'll blog as requested! :)

Yst i went to tan tock seng hospital to bring my mother for a scan. hmmz..the results will be out in 3 weeks time..i hope that the results wuld say that there is nothing wrong with her! Im sure there wun be anything wrong with her, thats why im still so calm! lol..anyway if u wanna know the specific details of wads wrong with my mother u can ask me cuz i dun think i can blog it out..lol..thx so much to my frenz for all their care and concern! Ur tags and msgs really cheer me up and make me think positively. =) Anyway, after the trip to the hospital my mother and i went tokfc to have lunch! And well im sure most of u who are reading this now wuld know wad happened next! lol..haha..i saw the hottest cashier guy i've ever seen at the kfc counter! lol...i purposely went to queue at his counter..lol..i think he is filipino..haha..so super cute!! I was so smitten that i just stared at him when he asked for my order..lol..took me some time to recover..haha..then he kept forgetting wad my order was..lol..haiz..melt melt melt..lol..i msged some aunties and ah mahs to share with them my experience..lol..cuz u dun expect me to tell my mother how happy i was to see a good looking cashier rite? haha..I wanna bring my frenz go that kfc to see that hot guy again!! lol..i hope he works when we go there!! =) yay!

Today had maths peer tutoring! hmmz..i dun like maths! But i will still put in my effort to improve! yea! lol..thx Ms liyi for teaching me today with so much patience..lol..luv ya! Gossiped alot with liyi and aurelia aft maths! lol..i like! haha..then aft that went to sengkang for the last part of rc training..had dinner with my juniors..i had fun! lol..missed them loads since i hadn't gone to seen them for soo long. haha..life rawks when ur ard happy, funny pple who love euu!

Im high today! Dunno why..just happy! Keep making me happy by tagging, writing testimonials and just being there for me! Thx loads pple..i dunno wad i wuld do without all the nice, crappy pple ard me really! Heez..Go SKRCY!! Go 20/06!! Go AJC!! Rawk on everyone!! =) =) =)

2006-11-13T14:37:00.000-08:00

My mother is unwell again. Quite seriously unwell.

I'm gonna dedicate today and tmr for her. Gotta bring her to the hospital.

It is really very expensive to fall sick in singapore. Haiz...

I realise that my family is poorer than i thought. I wish i culd do sth to help my parents.

I feel like im a bad daughter. =(

Let's look on the bright side like i have always did. =)

I'm not missing him....i'm not..i'm not..i'm not...i'm not.

2006-11-12T00:28:00.000-08:00

I suspect there's sth going on between one of the scandalous couples in 20/06. I sense too many sparkles! =D

I agreed to go ice skating with the disulphide aunties! I think im crazy cuz my balancing really sucks and im just gonna slow the three of them down! =x

Hmmz..i guess i dun really exist in his world. I shld just give up trying to get his attention. =(

But...u shld never give up on the things that make u smile rite? =)

I suddenly started to miss my interact exco today..lol..im so random.

SL grouping is out. Hmmz..dunno wad i feel..but i feel kind of pressurized being in the same grp as steven..lol..dunno if i can match up to his level of enthusiasm..lol..aurelia and liyi are in the same grp..so good!! Haha..actually its better for them to be able to interact thru this. =)

Mrs Siva rawks!! lol..she read thru my poems and told me that i shld stop trying to make my poems rhyme and i shld write on a variety of topics. She's honest! She just gave us a pile of gp hwk to do though..lol..tsk!

Happy Birthday to andy!! Hope that all his dreams and wishes come true! =)

My little brother is growing up sooo fast! He is becoming taller than me..so throw face. No more the cute, innocent boy i once knew...he's becoming more vain..his voice is breaking...he doesn't listen to me much anymore..well, he's just growing up and he has a mind of his own now. At least he is still so enthusiastic to play silly games with me and he talks to me abt his life sometimes. I shld appreciate this phase of his childhood while it lasts. =)

I'm broke! My mother is asking me to work. But i told her i can't cuz i needed to study during the holidays. Now im having second thoughts..shld i work??

PSLE results coming soon! Im nervous for my brother! Hope he passes wif flying colours.lol.

I guess thats it for my long, random entry! Haha..i was just blogging aimlessly cuz i was so bored..i miss school! =x

I think of you and i wonder if you ever think of me.

2006-11-10T21:45:00.000-08:00

PW is over!

But i dun really wish to talk abt it.

Cuz although i think i did well in my presentation, i screwed up big time in my Q&A.

Hope that i dun get a band 3 for PW cuz of my Q&A.

Im glad that my grp din dwell on our presentation after it ended.

So i wasn't that sad.

Went to have lunch with steven's group cuz my grp had dispersed dunno where and i din feel like going home early.

We went to this Sumo restaurant in ang mo kio to eat jap food. Kind of enjoyed myself. Steven and Sharlene make a gd combination. They keep bullying each other.lol. =) Sharlene has natural modelling abilities! Ask steven! =)

Im bored. Gotta get down to studying already. Boring. Boredom. I need motivation!! =)

I feel so lonely nowadays. As though there is no one out there for me. Maybe im just thinking too much. But i know that i miss the days we were together. I thought we were Best frenz forever?

2006-11-09T16:09:00.000-08:00

Hello!!

Im finally blogging! lol..was too busy watching goong whenever i was online. haha..and i have finally finished watching all the 24 episodes! Yay!! And i love everything abt that drama man..it really made me very happy! Haha..Princess Hours rawks!! I can't wait for season 2! =)

Today is my mother's birthday. Happy Birthday to her even though she wun see this!! Happy advanced birthday to andy too!! =) Tmr is my OP exam! the last day for pw..lol..im happy that its ending! But a little bit sad too cuz this wuld mean there wun be anymore time that AJ 102 wuld be having fun as a grp! Really got to know Andy, PeiShan, Kelvin and Zeling loads thru PW. Will never forget the happiness and the problems we faced throughout the whole year. =) I think i really improved loads in my presentation skills and i hope that i wun mess up tmr! Go Project MESAHI!! =)

Class chalet is coming soon! Im excited! =) Cheng en and I are the emcees for the thanksgiving thingy during the chalet..steven and renes said they will pair up pple who are not really close and i think its appropriate for them to pair me with cheng en cuz i rarely talk to him! lol..so i'll make use of this opportunity to interact more with him. yupz. =)

I can't go for the annual red cross training camp cuz its held on the same three days that the kidz pirated camp is held on!! Haiz..i really want to go for skrcy camp but SL camp is compulsory so i have no choice but to miss out RC camp. Im sorry guys! Hope u understand and all the best for the camp! Will miss u all! Ah Choo will take care of all of u! =)

KKz..all the best to everyone who is taking their oral presentation exam soon!! Give it ur best yea! Take carez everyone!! =)

I'm good at hiding my feelings with a smile.
No wonder pple always don't know what im feeling.

2006-11-03T16:45:00.000-08:00

Hello!! Im blogging! lol..hmmz..abt yst..yst was like the worst pw meeting i ever had man..haha..the conflicts were so unbearable that i just felt like running away from my grp..but then boss decided to step in and take control and we finally could go on, motivated once again! =) And im improving on my presentation! Yay! Aft my grp meeting, i waited for liyi so that we culd go home together. Went to watch their grp present..lol..they r so funny! Enjoyed myself! But im still loyal to Project M.E.S.A.H.I! =) Oh and i just started watching Goong! Only managed to finish episode 1 and 2 and its not bad!! Hahazz..but its gonna take so long to finish watching the whole series..im impatient! lol..Hmmz..i sleep alot nowadays..feel sleepy even though i have more than 8 hours of sleep..haha..I think im catching the Poah Sin Syndrome!! lol..i shld stop sleeping and get down to serious work soon! =)

Had Tamil A'level exam today..was ok but i dunno if i wrote the essay in the correct context..hope i din go out of point cuz its worth 60 marks!! I rushed home straight away after exam cuz i wanted to continue watching goong but when i reached home, i realised that i was supposed to have PW OP meeting with my grp...blur me..so i took another bus straight back to sch again..lol..din want to be a slacky member like i was before cuz this was like the second time im forgetting abt pw meeting..and we had a fruitful session today filled with fun and laughter! lol..i'm glad! =)

Ms Mel is getting married!! Yay! Im happy for her! And this means that i can see my sec sch classmates again! Haha..can't wait! =)

I want to be ur happiness.

2006-11-01T19:30:00.000-08:00

Us in the bus during the NE trip! We finally managed to sit in our favourite five-seater!! =)
I thought i looked photogenic on that day so i asked suzy to take a pic of me with liyi's beloved water bottle. =)
My first photo with Mr Hong!! Haha..no wonder i look so excited! =) Taken in the coffeeshop where we went to have our lunch during the NE trip.

2006-11-01T19:28:00.000-08:00

My number one and me!! =)
Me posing with the Tissue Packet that Mr Hong bought! lol..i was bored! =)

Fellow M.E.S.A.H.I (our grp project) member Andy and Me!! =)

2006-11-01T19:10:00.000-08:00

Disulphide aunties stopped for a photoshoot and we managed to pose for awesome pics! =)
Nice, Nice pic of aunties and Number zero outside CareCorner. =)

We rawk!! The Awesome Foursome indeed! =))

2006-10-30T19:20:00.000-08:00

Yay!! Today went back to sch after the long weekend! Hahazz..gotta cherish the few days we have left as J1 students..yupz..lol..anyway, nth significant happened today..just the op rehearsal..haha..i get super nervous when it comes to presentations and stuff! lol..i kind of messed up during today's rehearsal..kept stumbling on my words and i was like so stiff lah..haha..thx for the comments from the class! I'll work on it! Heez..im afraid that i really am very dependant on the cue cards..i feel so insecure when i dun have a cue card in my hand! Oh..dunno how im going to manage the upcoming presentations without cue cards..pei shan was so confident that i culd do it without the cards and she told mr hong that she wuld train me..lol..i just hate memorising stuff lah..hope i dun mess up during the other rehearsals..and its true..its difficult to smile when ur presenting! Unless u see a comical face in the crowd of course..haha..liyi's grp rawks lah! lol..all of them have such comical faces that i can't help it but smile when i look over in their direction! =)Must work hard for OP!! It carries 40%! I dun want to get band 3!! Hehe..All the best to everyone for their OP!! =))

I want to be near him, always.

2006-10-29T23:59:00.000-08:00

Like always, my sadness was short lived.

Like always, im glad that we talked it out and im not sad anymore.

I dun want to be the same old me. I like the way i am now. lol.

I want to be happy and i hope that my frenz are happy too! =)

So dun think too much and if ur sad, just rmb that im here for you! =)

(but dun scold me if i say the wrong things at the wrong time cuz i really never mean to hurt anyone)

=)) Thank You! =))

2006-10-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

Like always, my sadness was short lived.Like always, im glad that we talked it out and im not sad anymore.I dun want to be the same old me. I like the way i am now. lol.I want to be happy and i hope that my frenz are happy too! =)So dun think too much and if ur sad, just rmb that im here for you! =)(but dun scold me if i say the wrong things at the wrong time cuz i really never mean to hurt anyone)=)) Thank You! =))

2006-10-29T14:17:00.000-08:00

Why do i always say the wrong things at the wrong time? =(

Sometimes i just can't stand myself.=(

I'm sad. Super sad. =(

Next time i'll just shut my mouth. I'll not initiate any conversations. I'll not try to share any of my opinions. I'll not be open-minded and honest. I'll just be the same old, proud, lonely me. =(

It's not good to be around pple who make u sad.

2006-10-28T18:20:00.000-07:00

Hello!! A number of things to blog abt today..heez..im kind of happy..yupz..yst was a sch holiday cuz of deepavali..it was holiday for my sis too.. which means i get to spend time with her! =) Anywayz, we went to bugis to shop, have lunch and catch up! She bought a new bag! I helped her to bargain so that she culd get a gd price! lolz..then just walked ard a while then later went to the immigration place at lavander to register for her IC..i met a very old friend's aunty at ICA..I know that friend from my primary school and her aunty used to work in my primary sch as a cleaner..quite surprising that the aunty could recognize me..i asked her where my friend was studying at and she told me that my friend is not studying but is going to get married soon! OMG! I got a shock really..get married at such a young age? She must have had no choice..if u understand wad i mean.. Heard that another one of my primary sch friend whom i had lost contact with also had became pregnant when she was in sec 3 and had dropped out of sch..haiz..dunno why so many of my old frenz have to end up in such a sorry state..no news abt wad happened to the rest whom i had known in primary school..completely lost touch with them man..Just wish i can meet them all again sometime, somewhere. yupz. =)

After registering for my sister's IC, we went to Mustaffa Centre to meet our mother cuz she wanted 2buy some stuff from there and so we just accompanied her...Mustaffa shopping mall is really huge! I had a fun time exploring the whole place! =) Reached home ard evening and then i watched 'Click' on DVD..it's really a great movie!! I laughed and cried at the same time so the movie rawks! Try to catch it if u can! =)

Okies..that's it for yst..now let's see wad happened today! I woke up so early on a saturday morning!! Cuz i had first aid duty at HQ..yupz..lol..had two duties actually..the first one was at Marina City Park ..the event was a kind of walkathon cum funfair thing for elderly..yupz..there were a total of four firstaiders on duty including me..we were not expecting any casualties..so we were caught unaware when there was an emergency case all of a sudden!! It was so scary lah i tell u..an old lady had fallen down and she had injured her forehead..blood was oozing out from the wound...her skin at the wound area had totally peeled off! But she was still conscious when we went to attend to her...the thing was, i was just a beginner at first aid and that was my first emergency case so i was kind of in a daze..heng i had another experienced first aider with me..lol..he did most of the evacuating job actually..i was such an idiot lah..the other first aider asked me to take out gauze from the first aid bag and at the same time i was receiving commands from my walkie talkie..as usual i wasn't able to multi task..in the end i had to pass the first aid bag to the other first aider cuz i kept passing him the wrong stuff!! lol..so embarrassing..but at least i managed to activate the ambulance on time and i brought the old lady's husband to the place where the ambulance was situated. We brought the old lady to SGH..Man..that was an exciting experience alrite! lol..really do hope that the old lady is alrite. =)

After that first aid duty, we proceeded to ang mo kio for another duty for the opening of a special school at avenue 9. Guess who the GOH for that event was? The cutest, cuddliest Mr S.R Nathan of course!! lolz..i was so excited to see him face to face! Haha..couldn't get to say hi to him though cuz he was surrounded by all the impt pple and of course his body guards. lolz..there was a funfair held at the special school for the children with special needs. It was great to see those kids having fun and enjoying themselves...my love for children just grew two fold today..lolz.. there was a little girl who had mutliple abrasions cuz of a fall..we attended to her and she was just so sweet! She din talk to anyone of the first aiders at all at first but when we were leaving the place, the girl came to me and showed me the prize that she had won at a game and then waved bye to me! Nice! She loves me! lolz =)

So yupz today was great..had not attended any public duties cuz of exams and stuff and now i can attend again..but have to prioritise still..i'll just attend the exciting public duties! lol..Oh! And im covering First aid for our kidz pirated camp! ooo..im gonna have fun but im worried that i'll get tricky cases too! Hahazz..kids are prone to frequent accidents but just hope that i dun have much business during the camp! lol..kelly is helping me anyway so shld be ok! =) I can't wait!! =))

Fun Filled Life Here We Come!!! =D

2006-10-27T23:10:00.000-07:00

Hello! Just dun have the mood to blog nowadays..hmmz..uploaded some pics..hahazz..i love taking pics when i know im photogenic! lol..hmmz..yst had learning journey..i did enjoy it..not the actual journey but the bus ride and the photo taking with my frenz..lol..after that went to care corner with the SL commitee..and i realised sth...my frenz dun realise it when im pissed or angry..lol..just like pple dun believe me when i say im sick cuz i always dun look sick when im sick..lol..but its ok..anger like sadness should only be short-lived if not u will grow old faster!

Supposedly, its the holidays now...We still have PW OP and MT to clear...and i wuld still have to do alot of stuff during the holidays so im not that excited that theres no sch...actually im kind of sad that theres no more normal sch cuz im gonna miss having lessons with my classmates and im gonna miss J1 life alot..kind of wierd huh..i sleep during lectures and detest tutorials but yet i want normal lessons just cuz i want to see my class! Hahazz..and im gonna miss my homeroom!! lol..wierd me..

I get irritated and sad very easily nowadays so pardon me if i snap at you anytime..I wish there was no more shipping problems...20/06 would be so so perfect with the shipping problems solved. Disulphide aunties hold on!! Dun drift away hor! Happy holidays to everyone! And all the best to ah choo and his batch mates who are gonna take their O's soon! =))

Pls stop coming to me in my dreams.

2006-10-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

Suzy's angels or her S.H.E..anyhow we're the best!! =)
I wasn't photogenic during hari raya..lol..suzy and me!! =)
We dun have to act cute cuz we are naturally cute? lolz =)

2006-10-27T22:29:00.000-07:00

Us at my house during Deepavali! =)
Darling eileen and I =)
20/06 rawks!! All of us minus two at arifah's house during Hari Raya!! =)

2006-10-27T10:20:00.000-07:00

Steven's gang at arifah's house!! =)
My number zero and I =)
The open house facilitators with Weiquan during AJ Open House 2006!!

2006-10-24T21:28:00.000-07:00

Being in a relationship is tiring.

I'll learn from the mistakes of others. =)

Liking someone is even more tiring.

This, i can't help it. =)

When you come near me
My heart stops beating
It starts again when you smile

2006-10-23T23:30:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder why pple have to think so much...
I wonder why pple have to hold grudges...
I wonder why pple have to fret over things so insignificant.
I'm guilty of being a hypocrite at times. Its hard to avoid that quality in life.
Wouldn't it be nice if the world was a paradise with nice, happy pple around who were always genuine to u?
Wouldn't it be nice if u culd just change ur mood or clear ur worries in the wink of an eye?
Wouldn't it be just great if u knew that u could trust everyone around you without worrying abt who might backstab u later on?
Yeah..it would be great but life would definitely lose its spice.
Just some random thoughts.

Anyway, went for the results briefing by ms leong today..specially for the pple who got advanced to JC2 instead of being promoted due to the bad results..she just talked to us and asked us to work hard and stuff..really felt like we were given a second chance to prove ourselves..hmmz..pple pls dun ask me to go out anymore! I think i wuld be grounded for the whole of my holidays once my parents get to know my results..haiz..i still haven't told them yet..can't bring myself t0 spoil their festive mood...will tell them once hari raya is over i guess..hmmz..nth else was special abt the day...except for PE..played captains' ball! So fun! It rawks totally! lol..i'd rather play ball games for the rest of my jc life than run ard the stupid track! lol

why are u not there when i need u to be there?

Simply Cute-That's You! =)

2006-10-22T17:02:00.000-07:00

Hello!! This is kind of late but i would like to wish all indians a happy deepavali! lol..Happy Belated Birthday to Mr Roy Pek! lol..anyway, impt news! Heard from Wee theng sth..Mr Hong told her that the whole of 20/06 got promoted! Which means im promoted! Hahazz..was so happy and relieved when i heard that! Thx Ms SuSan Leong!! U rawk!! lol...hmmz..i am happy for my class but at the same time im sad for those who din make it...haiz..how nice it wuld be if all of us were given a second chance huh? Hmmz...

Deepavali was great yst although my mother was kind of sick and so couldn't really be a good host..i did not really invite many pple to my house cuz my mum told me to invite as less frenz as possible..lol..so hope that the few who came enjoyed themselves! Sorry to those whom i din invite...hope u understand! =)

Hey 20/06! Congrats for getting promoted! Let's work harder next year...erm..no we shld start from now! Go visit the class forum and vote in the gossip section pleeese!! =))

ILU my frenz and family! Thx for all ur support and encouragement! Thx to my eyecandies for cheering me up and making me happy! lolz

I choose to luv u in silence cuz in silence there's no rejection. =)

2006-10-17T22:51:00.000-07:00

Judgement day today...got back all the results...hmmz..i dunno whether i want to really elaborate on my disappointment..haha..just sick of repeating myself over and over again cuz quite alot of pple asked abt my results today...haha..basically i did not meet the promotion criteria lah...only passed 1 H2 and 2 H1..failed chem and maths...and im so disappointed with my geog...maths i can understand..cuz i din put in much effort for it but i put in so much effort for chem and geog and i still din pass them so i was quite vexed lah..things in the audi when we were getting our results were not that good either..hmmz..i din cry in front of my classmates...as in i did shed some tears but i think no body saw..lol..anyway cry also no use rite..i can't change my results...just was so irritated by some pple who were boasting abt their results when others were miserable with how they did..hmmz..they shld learn to be more sensitive....If the sch followed the old promotion criteria, more than a quarter of the cohort will get retained so my pd tutor said that there will be adjustments done to the criteria...hmmz..i hope so really...i really hope that everyone i know, including me will get promoted...hmmz..i'll be so relieved when i know that 20/06 wuld still remain as a whole..haha..

Its true that u can see the real character of someone during the release of results cuz wad they do really reflects on them alot..yupz..although i was quite sad today, it kind of touched my heart that soo many pple cared abt me...really..i wish i can give acknowledgements to everyone here...i'll try..haha..firstly thx to wei quan for being nice, funny and supportive during the release of results..for once, he din rub salt onto my wounds..lol..thx to poah sin for just asking me how was i and for smiling at me to cheer me up...thx to liyi, aurili and suzy for being there even though we were kind of in the same boat..haha..like aurili said, the disulphide aunties are very very very strong..our bonds are too strong to be broken so i believe that all of us will end up together again! To Suzy: Dun be sad! Wadever happens, happens for good. Everything will turn out well my number one! To liyi: Its ok to tell us ur sad! We wun mind cuz its U after all! If it was someone else telling us the same thing we might have been irritated but well, it's you so we'll understand..lol..Thx sooo much for the letter dear! I really appreciate it! =) To aurelia: Haha..i dunno wad to say..ur a strong aunty..thx for listening to me and just thx for everything...and dun let urself be stepped upon kies! =) I luv u all aunties!! Wadever happens, i'll always appreciate and cherish the time we spent together! =)

Now, i wanna thank the three other pple whom i love in the class..lol..thx alot to kelly for her msg and thx too for the gossipy shopping trip we had! lol..thx to eileen for chatting with me online for quite sometime, thx for the testimonial and thx for being so nice! Haha..thx to arifah for her msgs and encouragement too!! Haha..My number zero as usual was there for me today..he rawks! lol..thx to boon ping brother-in-law too cuz he helped me fill up my water bottle twice and he tried to encourage me online..haha..bro-in-law rawks too! Thx to pei shan for the heart-to-heart talk we had..hmmz..thru talking to her i culd realize that not only pple who failed felt sad but pple who did not perform up to their expectations felt sad too..hmmz..who else do i have to thank? Actually the list could go on but i just wuld like to leave it like this..lol..

In short, i would just like to thank all those who in one way or another supported me and encouraged me today...now i'm worried not for myself alone but for the others around me too..yupz..i just hope that everyone wuld be happy in the end..yupz..thx guys really..20/06 rawks big time man! We rawk so much that God would not dare to separate us! lol

Non Mihi Solum

2006-10-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hmmz..i dunno wad wrong with me..keep having mood swings..feel so high a moment and totally low in a while...haiz..i dunno why..dun think im so much fun to be with these few days..lol..so sorry..anyway, got back maths and GP results today..im happy with my GP marks..maths..hmmz..lol..expected..at least i was consistent in maintaining my single digit mark..the rest of the results would know tmr...after that i will display my marks one by one..haha.Had OP workshop today..was ok..im proud of my pw grp..we r so efficient! Haha..need to improve on my presentation style. =)

I just wish i culd be happy always with no sudden mood swings..i guess deep inside i know why im feeling like this...i just dun want to talk abt it...i know sth is wrong but i guess i have no control over anything..im just tired of things lah..i'll just go with the flow i guess...sometimes i shld not be so selfish...im sure none of u know wad im talking abt but its ok..sometimes i dun even know wad im talking abt.Hmmz..

On a happier note, Mother Tongue and PW is ending soon! Mr Hong said that theres a chance that none of us in the class would retain! I hope he's rite! I did a good deed today by making someone's day! Im gonna have a phone conversation with the aunties again! I bought a new watch, new clips, new clothes for deepavali and new shoes!! Yea! Hahazz..give me more things to be happy abt tmr! Kies then peeps..gtg..take carez! =)

2006-10-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

This week is a slacky different week...we din study anything..it was post promo activities and PW all the way...PW no comments..i just can't wait for it to end..Had character development programme and MIME WORKSHOP! CDP was ok lah..i din learn much but it was better than doing normal school work..at least could slack and have fun with my classmates..mime was loads of fun although it went kind of slow! A very different workshop i attended definitely..Yesterday, Friday the 13th, Farewell assembly..his last day..haiz im gonna miss him..but i still have my number zero with me so it will be ok..lol..auri told me not to think abt him in order to not miss him so im not gonna think abt him at all...but it will be hard lah..every morning when i take the bus, he will come to my mind...everytime i see someone wearing cheetah house tshirt or when someone mentions cheetah house i'll think abt him...there are so many things that wuld remind me abt him...hmmz..but im gonna try! Anywayz, farewell assembly was great! AJ teachers are really very caring and nice pple! The programmes were fun to watch and were very entertaining and even touching. Steven danced! He was superb man..my eyes were on him all the while...Im so proud of him..i have such a super shuai, super talented, super smart friend called steven! Haha..had fun cheering with my frenz for steven and the other pple we know.

TOday was AJ open house and 12 pple from 20/06 were open house facilitators! We gotta wear the bright green tshirts designed by 20's very own renes! Tried most of the time to do my job as a facilitator..lol..during free time went to support our classmates who were performing...man i cheered so much for them! Watched steven's performance like 3 times in total i think..not many pple turned up for open house but i still had fun like always! =) 20/06 rawks!! AJC rawks!! =)

After open house had PW meeting at AMK library..guess who i ran into there? BEnjamin Ang and Bixiu!! Lol! Was so surprised to see them there...soooo happy! Haha..talked to them for a while and went home later on with benjamin..miss them so much man..today was nj open house too..lol..i miss 06S23 loads! Let's meet up soon guys!

Awaiting next week...more PW..bleah..and lessons will resume..haha..sch is fun! lol..rawk on guys! Enjoy the present cuz its a gift! =))

2006-10-11T22:42:00.000-07:00

Im troubled.

Things wun be the same anymore.

I only have two days left to see him.Gotta change target liao.lol. im so fickle.

Next tuesday is the big day.My fate lies in my results.

Alot of things happening now. Man..i love to be busy. =))

Dhanesh got a sub-pass for his tamil. Im proud of him..glad my teaching contributed too. =)

Looking forward to alot of things. =))

Juicy Scandals!!
Charming Smiles!
Dancing guys!
Leaving Candies!
Genetic Drift!
Cute Kids!
Old frenz!
Upcoming Festival!

LIFE is a Drama! =))

2006-10-09T00:32:00.000-07:00

Today followed my sister go compass point...went to buy a belated gift, an advanced gift and bought my sis her birthday gift on the spot...took so long to buy the gifts..met yanting at minitoons...told her abt aj's promos and she told me abt the difficulty in her hospital attachments..nursing wuld always be one of the courses that i respect and like..haha..glad that zhiwei and yanting are having fun training to be nurses..had lunch after walking ard cp for a while..then went to rivervale plaza to meet up with derek, yee shan and christina...my sis wanted to study with them lar then i just like kind of accompanied her and i taught some chem to christina, yee shan and my sis...and SOMEONE kept calling me B3 just cuz i got b3 for O'level chem..hmph..Doesn't mean that SOMEONE got A for prelims will get A for O'level too rite..lol..idiot ah choo...i tried to study for chem SPA during the time i spent in macs with them too...but i din really succeed cuz had too many distractions..lol..anyway really missed them loads lar..was glad to see them again..stayed for quite a long while..had dinner with my sis and then went home. =)

My house had a complete makeover...cuz deepavali is coming and my parents are cleaning and decorating the house now..it just had a new coat of paint today...my room is no more pink..so sad..lol..but its ok..there shld be some variety..then my parents bought new furniture after such a long time too..all the old yucky stuff is gone..my whole house is so new that it doesn't feel like home anymore..lol..gotta adapt to the new surroundings..haha..tmr might be going to bugis to shop with my sis again..have chem SPA on tuesday..Boo!! Who has High School Musical DVD or VCD? I wanna borrow! Some kind soul who has pls lend me kies...inform me if u hav asap..if not i've gotta spend $5 to rent the dvd..dun want waste money! Haha..im happy when i dun think abt the stuff that is happening ard me and just indulge in my pleasures..the key to being happy? Dun think too much! =))

I miss Harimau although i have given up on him.

The Disulphide Aunties rawk!! =)

Life is sweet when u have time to slack.

I'm still wondering if i'd be able to stay...after all, im worse than everyone else.

Okies..gotta follow my own advice..not gonna think too much! =)

2006-10-07T17:53:00.000-07:00

No mood to blog but i will anyway.

Promos are over at last. I screwed up. In everything except GP and Tamil. Cuz well i guess its hard to screw up in ur language exams.

I won't mention retaining again cuz i know being negative can be very irritating. But i'll think alot abt it and will just hope and pray that i can be promoted.

Went to Bishan Park to celebrate Mid Autumn festival with my class after geog paper. Thx to kelly and gang for making me feel at home when my clique wasn't with men the way there.Went to the playground to play with arifah and sharlene. Andy was shaking his head at our childishness and just watched us from a distance..like our father.lol..i played the swing. Arifah pushed me high high and higher...and i embarassed myself by screaming as though i was in a roller coaster or sth...the little kids at the playground were all looking at me..so throw face..lol..i love kids..they r soo cute..esp the one that i carried at the playground. Went back to the table where my classmates were, blowing bubbles all the way there to find out that liyi was kind of missing...Bishan park was so big..many others couldn't find their way around too..andy found liyi in the end..hmmz..its a big story that im too lazy to type abt. Anyway, i enjoyed myself lah..first time i celebrate this festival with my frenz..it was fun really.

Reached home ard 11pm. Had a telephone conference with aurili, suzy and liyi which started at 12 am n ended at like almost 3.30 am. 3 and a half hours on the phone. I broke my record of 1 and a half hour in the past man..lol..we talked alot of stuff..im glad we did..i love them loads..really do..and im proud of them. The bonds between us are made up of disulphide bridges that no one can break!! Yupz! =))

Woke up at 11.30 am today and have been slacking till now...finally can breathe and watch tv and slack..watched the da vinci code DVD...blog hopped..chatted..and blogged! Gotta go clean up my room now..its so full of books and rubbish.And im gonna teach my sis chem and my bro science cuz their exam is on monday...haha..Trying to not think abt wads coming up next...trying to enjoy the moment..help me will u? =))

2006-10-05T12:25:00.000-07:00

Yupz..im blogging..know that i said i wouldn't blog till promos are over but i just couldn't take it anymore...too many thoughts running thru my mind...needed an avenue to let it all out. I think im hopeless. Never in my life have i struggled so much just to get a pass...i really regret slacking the whole year...if only i had been more attentive during lesson...if only i had been more consistent and conscientous in doing my tutorials...if i only i had realised all this earlier..if only...haiz...all my H2 papers are over and i dun think i wuld be able to meet the criteria to promote...i mean really..i dun think i will be promoted...the chance is like 50-50...almost cried after chem paper today..i screwed it up totally...i felt so bad cuz liyi tried to help me with chem the day before and i still culd not do most of the qns....lack of time was a factor too...i feel so hopeless...so sad...so dumb...haiz...why can't things be like the past when i had no difficulty with my schoolwork at all...when i was only disappointed cuz i knew i wuld not get an A...I dun think i can be happy till the exam results are out...i want to get promoted..i really do...but if i get retained, i would have to think abt whether i want to stay on in aj or not...the consequences of not getting promoted really scares me. =(

I know u pple tried to cheer me up and stuff today..thx alot really...its nice to know that there are pple around who really care for you, who cry for you cuz they are worried about you, who can't go to sleep cuz they r concerned abt u...im so lucky that i met such good frenz...but well, i should have tried harder in order to not leave them...hmmz..i know i sound negative..i haven't even gotten my results yet..but its just a feeling of impending doom...someone told me that there are cases when even if u don't meet the criteria for promotion, u wuld still be able to continue in J2 based on ur level of improvement and good attitude..that's the only thing that is giving me hope now.

Geog and mother tongue paper tmr...hmmz..wonder if theres any use doing well in my h1 when my h2 is so horrible...Dear God, pls give me another chance! I'll turn into a diligent student if i get promoted..wun slack anymore..really! Haha..life is so unpredictable..i'll just wait for the verdict...I'll try to be positive...i'll try to be happy. Take carez pple!! =)

2006-09-21T15:30:00.000-07:00

Hello! Dun think i will be blogging anymore till promos end.

Gonna restrict myself from going online so yupz scold me and ask me to go study if u see me online again!

Haha..all the best to everyone taking their exams at this period of time..just put in ur best and u will reap what you sow. =))

Im not stressed!! I dunno why...im just very worried that i can't pass my 2 h2 subjects. Be proud of me cuz yupz im putting in more effort than before!(but not as much as i wuld like to)

Will miss my dear bloggie...but im gonna be more serious now..im giving up on him so no more distractions...not gonna waste anymore time during breaks...gonna study during my bus rides to and fro sch...im gonna be more disciplined...slacker no more for now...it's never too late right? I hope that my words will be put into actions..yupz! =))

That's all peeps. I'm always here for you if u need me..just a sms will do..Stay happy alrite! Take care always..peace. =)

2006-09-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

Will like to make a quick post. Today during one of the breaks, i called aurelia's handphone for fun. Just to see if she wuld pick up but i knew she wuld not as she was not allowed to use handphones in the hospital. Liyi kind of scolded me for calling auri cuz her hp was supposedly with her sister and liyi said i was crazy to disturb the sister anyhow. lol. As i expected, no one answered auri's hp so i hung up. The next minute, i received a call from auri's hp. i thought it was her sis or father or someone else. The person on the other line said hello and i was jumping with joy and surprise. It was Aurelia!! =))

It felt so good to hear her voice after soooo long. I almost had tears..haha..can't believe that i am so emotional lah..heez..i made a commotion in class after i heard aurelia talking. Shouted to liyi and suzy that it was aurelia speaking and a whole grp of my class girls crowded around my phone trying to speak with aurelia. Only suzy and wee theng got to speak with her finally. I was glad to know that she was ok and that she had been discharged from the hospital. But it will take some time for her to come back to sch...it's ok though..at least she has recovered already. I am happy!! =))

I'm sorry that i was so irritating today liyi! Dunno wads wrong with me..haha..i'll try not to be so irritating next time...and ur rite..i shld stop being hypocritical towards her...i just can't help but be nice to everyone...even to pple whom i find irritating. Hmmz..anyway, dun dislike me ok..i'll be nicer to u tmr!! Hahazz..Went to cut hair with my sis today..the stupid hairdresser made my sis cry!! She pulled at my sister's hair till she culd not tahan anymore...lousy hairdresser...mine was better but my hair cut shorter than i wanted it to be already..i dun like! Haiz..just have to wait for it to grow back..lol..hmmz..wuld like to take this chance to wish happy birthday to my handsome bro, sharlene and kelly! Hope that all their dreams and wishes come true! Did dance for pe today...i can't cha cha!!!! Oh man....i really can't dance lah...im so lousy..lol..but i think its fun even though i can't do it! lol..yupz..thats it then..take carez always pple..luv ya all! =))

2006-09-16T10:25:00.000-07:00

Aurelia is sick. She wuld not be coming to sch for a few weeks and i'm worried like hell. Promos are coming and i dunno how is she going to catch up. And its dengue somemore. The disease with no vaccine, medicine whatsoever...haiz..stupid mosquito..why did it have to bite my friend out of all pple and at such a crucial period of time too.Hmmz...i really hope that she will get well soon and return to us happy and smiling again. I feel so empty in sch without her...the remaining three of us are like so incomplete without the fourth aunty...haiz..we can't even go visit her in the hospital cuz she is in a restricted ward...haiz..i really wish i culd help but the only thing i can do is collect her homework for her. Miss her loads and loads. I cried just now while thinking abt the pain and difficulty that my friend is going thru now...get well soon aurelia!

Went for red cross training yst aft sch, aft a long time. Ah choo wasn't there. I come he dun come. I dun come then he come. Felt so bored without him.Haha.Sakinah was there for a while. Nasri came down too. He was an idiot like always, making silly lame jokes. lol..i only went there towards the end of the training so culd only see them train their footdrill..hehe..had fun with the non-fdc squad. Was quite fun to teach them although their drills were quite horrible. Haha...just can't stand some of the cadets though. ATTITUDE. I ask them run, they walk. I shout at them to run, they still walk. Haiz...problematic. lol..but it was still fun!! =)) Aft training went to have dinner at kfc with melvin, calvin, nasri and my sis. By that time i already knew abt aurelia so i was like quite sad already..was difficult for me to enjoy my meal. Hmmz..i think i wun be going down to sk until after promos already. At least i got to see most of the cadets so im satisfied. =))

2006-09-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

Went to innova jc for the inter-jc news article writing competition's prize giving ceremony...we only knew that aj was receiving a prize but din know whether it was the chinese, malay or tamil category..my partner sobana was so nervous while i was so calm abt the whole thing..lol..cuz i think victory mattered alot to her..she said that if we din win anything, our tamil teacher wuld be very disappointed with us and that the whole thing wuld be a waste of time..i felt that even if we lost it wuld still have been a great experience but we experienced the same anxiety when the time came for the prize presentation..my heart was beating like damn fast when they announced the third prize for the tamil category..it went to serangoon jc..i thot we had no chance already...then suddenly, to my joy, the emcee announced that the 2nd place for the tamil category goes to the team frm ajc...was so happy lah...haha..i think sobana was even happier and more relieved than me...our tamil teacher was there to support us and he took a photo when we received the prize frm the goh..the 1st place for tamil went to the team frm yishun jc..quite surprising as most of us were expecting millenia to win as they had won last yr...think the yjc pple were equally surprised as well..i congratulated them during the reception!! haha..

Oh yah..after the tamil category we thought that was all for ajc cuz we were told that we were only receiving one prize but we receieved another surprise when the 2nd place for the chinese category went to the team from aj too! Haha..go AJ,AJ rawks!! So we were all very happy except the team in the malay category i think cuz they din manage to win anything. This is the first mother tongue based competition that i took part in aj and i managed to win sth together with publicity in the newspapers so im very satisfied..lol..sobana and me ate ice cream at macs to celebrate our victory..haha..my idea! I'm encouraged to take part in more competitions..haha..thx to everyone who supported us in one way or another!! =)) Happy birthday to aunty amerlyn whose birthday is tmr!! Hope that all her dreams and wishes come true!! =))

2006-09-07T22:20:00.000-07:00

Hi! I promised peeps tt i wuld blog today so i have to...but im finding it so hard cuz my nose is running like a watertap and i keep on sniffing..practically my whole family is sick..except for my bro...haha..dun even have mood to study..dun think im making effective use of my holidays..heez..anywayz today was a fun day! We went to Sungei Buloh! Not as a class though..things screwed up and in the end me, liyi, aurelia, suzy and zeling had to kind of sacrifice and join another grp today while the rest of the class wuld go tmr..was quite sad tt we culd not go with the majority of the class but there was no choice..someone had to give in the end so it was ok lo..and we really enjoyed ourselves even though we were like the minority in the trip today so its alrite.

So like i said, we went to sungei buloh, or like i usually call it-bungei suloh. Haha..had gone there before with the daybreak kids and i found it utterly boring cuz well im just not a nature enthusiast..din want to go this time but i dunno wad made me change my mind last minute..haha..and the bio teachers said that it was highly relevant to our evolution topic so just decided to go lo...we can see johor frm sungei buloh..i even had malaysian reception in my hp! Haha..the bus journey was quite long..we took the back seats and were chattering while liyi like always was trying to sleep. haha..Part 1 of the trip was abt the mangrove swamps and some animals living at that habitat..this time it wasn't as boring as the last cuz i was quite enthusiastic..haha..the 2nd part of the trip abt the adaptation of the birds' beaks was fun! Wun spoil the surprise for those who haven't gone but it was an interesting experience...thanesh is so comical can..he kept making all of us laugh by making silly comments..lol..we took loads of photos at the wetland reserve..we even took a photo with Ms Mani but I was not in the photo! Then liyi they all said that Ms Mani was replacing me in the pic..haha..Hmph..dunno why my face jus din come in in alot of the photos we took..lol..so sway...was so so so hungry by the time we reached aj.

The five of us went to pizza hut to eat..yummy! Hahazz..we took loads of crazy pics on the way..thx to suzy's camera for satisfying our narcisstic pleasures..lol..pizza was nice! We chit chatted loads during the meal..liyi fed me her baked rice..suzy, auri and liyi made me happy by telling me that i was different frm the typical indian girls..different in a positive way..sth like special maybe..cuz i was asking them whether the indian waitress at pizza hut looked like me..and they said i look prettier and we came to talk abt this whole topic..haha..it was the first meal that all four of us were having together as one of us always culd not make it when we r with the rest and i really enjoyed the meal loads!! Hahazz..really hope that all four of us can have more meals together and go out together more. During lunch, i found out frm one of my fren tt i and her were featured in the tamil newspaper...cuz we went for this inter jc mother tongue newspaper writing competition at innova jc last monday and the health minister came down to have a forum with all the students and i was captured having a conversation with the minister and an interview that i gave was also featured..man..i din even know i was being interviewd canthe newspaper editor just called me out of the blue and talked to me as though she was just asking for feedback..who knows it wuld cum out in the papers..if i had known i wuld have given better answers..lol....haha..just saw the pic and i think its quite not bad lah..but my father said that my aunty bag seemed very wierd..heez..agree that it wuld have been better without that bag..lol..will try to scan in the pic or sth soon..heez..

Anyway, let's come back to topic.After lunch, zeling and suzy went to buy comics while the rest of us were window shopping..lol..liyi and auri bought bubbles..as in the blowing bubbles thingy where u blow soap and loads of bubbles will emerge? Yupz..haha..and we relieved childhood memories together, blowing bubbles. So fun! Ze ling culd not take our nonsense aft a while and she went off cuz she had sth on..lol..next we walked to the playground opposite amk library to play swing..childish i know but i like! I can't swing high lor..so lousy..lol..but last time i culd leh..haha..yea..that was last time....we went to climb up those ropes at the playground too..i was so scared at first..aurili so pro..haha..monkey! We took pics as we climbed up the rope..hmmz..i dun really know how to describe but it was great fun..i did stuff that i wuld never dare to do in front of others....i'd always seemed like so mature and feminine and all and im actually very childish and funny..just that im so shy and resereved that few pple see that side of me..haha..and i think aurili, suzy and liyi are one of the few that im really comfortable with..i can really be myself with them and im just so glad i found them! =)) We did loads of things at the playground...we blew bubbles, we chatted abt random stuff, took pics and i even sang a little..haha..was so happy! =))

After that, we were super tired and all of us had run out of water so we decided to walk to suzy's house there to buy bubble tea..in the end only me and suzy bought bubble tea...auri and liyi bought vegetable juice! lol..then went home lor..sorry if i had missed out anything but well thats wad happened. so yupz, it wasn't so bad that we din go with the class today cuz we managed to bond as a grp and i really had loads of fun! Love ya all aunties!! Haha..ooo..paul twohill was eliminated..so sad..so sad..hmmz..its like deja vu..just like the last season...taufik, sylvester, olinda. Now, Hady, jonathan and jasmine. Hady rawks just like taufik!! I support him! =) That's it folks..take carez! =))

2006-09-02T19:05:00.000-07:00

HEY! Went to the science centre with a few of my classmates and some other ajcians today..we had a bio informatics course there...was really a great workshop..learnt many new stuff..really enjoyed myself at the science centre with all my frenz..the stuff there simply rawks man..din know that science could be so fun...haha..im kind of interested in lifescience..interested in psychology too..dunno wad my career path is gonna be like..hmmz..kkz..short entry for today..rmb to read my ultra long entry below and tag!! Thx loads! Take care! =))

2006-09-01T23:20:00.000-07:00

Hello! Many things to blog abt but got very little time left b4 i zonk out of exhaustion..haha..Had PE on wed morning..did the ACES day Dance practise..was so wierd..haha..some pple are so jealous of my class's enthususiasm during PE! Hmph..haha..after the dance, some of the girls went to play netball...I skipped TAF cuz i couldn't resist the temptation of playing with my classmates..haha..it was super fun man! heez..i finally managed to shoot and score one goal for my team...cuz i always cannot shoot accurately one..eileen was so pro in scoring...aurelia was so pro in blocking me and ze ling was so fast in her movements..that's my opponent team...despite their strength and agility, my team won!! Cuz got renes, kelly, me and bonus pei shan!!! Haha..was really a great game..the last game before promos..heez.. had sengkang prize giving day cum cutural night on that day..hmmz..the prize winners were not given much importance this year..the performances appeared more impt...but the show was good anyway..think the whole thing was a success..the journey to kallang theatre was hilariously horrible though...i dun even want to explain...i had never been caught in such a dire situation before so it was a gd experience..lol..and yea..murphy's law held true once again..i was supposed to be at kallang theatre at 6.45pm but i ended up reaching at 7.50pm...lol..that was how "adventurous" the jorney there had been..and i was supposedly the most important prize winner of the day..haha..my foot lah..haha..i was like drenched, sticky and nervous by the time i reached kallang...

Saw alot of my ex-schoolmates..managed to relax a bit after i saw zhiwei..haha..there were so many pple in the theatre..was so scary...and i was so blur when i went on stage to receive the prize..haha..heard that i was smiling too much..haha..must appear nice in the photos mah..lol..din hear any applause cuz being on stage was so scary for me that all sound just drowned away...but got pple clap for me lah..thx to everyone who cheered!! Haha..omg.im starting to sound so narcisstic...haha..i was so relieved after the prize presentation..just sat down and enjoyed the performance...the lead actress of the play, abigail was great...requires alot of guts to act like that in front of hundreds of pple and she did it so kudos to her!

Felt so exhilirated cuz i realized that that was the day that i had always been dreaming about..hmm..it was a nice feeling..haha..managed to see loads of pple that i have not seen in a long time...saw mr and mrs raj!! Haha..good that i got to see mrs raj since the next day was teachers' day and she is not in skss anymore...saw fathiah dear...miss her so much..really felt like crying when she hugged me..haha..saw ah choo who had an extreme makeover..lol..my red cross juniors, Ali who was the first one to spot and msg me when i entered kallang theatre,loads of sk teachers and alot more pple...i felt sooo happy i tell u..haha..it was really a great day despite the heavy rain, the miserable journey and my irritating cough.

Thx to my parents and my brother for coming to see me and my sis and congrats to my sis for the award she received!! Congrats to all the ex students who received the O'level value added award too! Thx to wileen for accompanying me from cheshire to amk station and for giving me all those hints on proper behaviour during the prize presentation..so sorry that i couldn't make the impromptu speech though..haha..thx to melvin for taking part in the taxi hunt but i won in the end anyway..heez..thx to zhiwei for keeping me updated over the phone on the condition at kallang while i was busy taxi-hunting...thx to the man at the traffic light who offered to share his humongous umbrella with my sis and i while we were stranded in the rain...and finally thx to everyone who had helped in one way or another!!! Haha..oh no..i've just finished one small part of my entry! Still got so many to go...lol.

This week really has been exhausting...i've been coming home at late night almost everyday..after the cultural night, was so exhausted that i just slept straightaway without even making the teachers' day cards that i had planned to make for my sec sch teachers earlier...haiz..so in the end i had nth to give my teachers the next day..but well, its the thought that counts right..lol..the next day which was yst was teachers' day celebrations at aj..it was sooooo much better than the boring national day celebrations that were held...enjoyed it loads..hmmz..din know that mr chan, the interact teacher in charge is so popular...haha..he got nominated for all the 3 special awards...Mr Humorous, Mr Fashionable and Mr Mesmerizing Smile..LOL! He won Mr Fashionable..ROFL!! The interact exco must have been shocked..haha..i msged a few teachers to wish them happy teachers' day..wished a few when i saw them around..went with liyi to give mrs siva the card that i had made for her on behalf of the class..she was so happy to receieve it!! Haha..she's really a nice teacher and i do agree that she teaches better than mr akshir..haha..actually all my tutors are very nice, caring pple...ms leow who takes so much effort to give us one to one remedial sessions despite her tight schedule, mr hong who is so patient with us even though we disappoint him alot, ms huang who tries to answer all our silly, inquisitve qns and mrs ong with her excellent style of teaching...One thing that i can really say that is gd abt aj is that it really has extremely caring teachers. Happy Teachers' Day to all the teachers at aj!!

After the celebrations, liyi and i attended a motivation workshop in the hope that we'll become more motivated...but i was falling asleep in the workshop...dun think that it was really that useful..haha..thx for accompanying me though liyi!! =) After that rushed to sengkang...met up with zhiwei at the bus stop outside skss and we went to see all the teachers at my corrupted, longkang yet sweet memories holding sec sch. Haha..i really miss that sch man...wow..it felt so nice to see all my teachers again..din get to see ms mel though...saw mrs quek and talked to her a while..i almost cried after i finished talking to her...told her of how my academic work was suffering in aj...The words she said and her actions gave me even more motivation than the motivation workshop did..haha..She told me that i cannot retain, failure is not an option and that it's never too late. I must do it, at least for her and all my other teachers who have such a good impression of me..thank you to my sec sch teachers!! Without u pple, i wuld not be where i am today..thx loads!

Had lunch with zhiwei, mildred and melissa at the sch canteen..haven eaten there for quite some time...haha..i was happy once again!! I know that my sec sch is becoming bad to worse in terms of academics and discipline but it will still hold fond memories for me and i wuld always be grateful to my alma matar no matter how bad the sch becomes or how irritating the management is. lol..after lunch i went back to amk cuz i had project work meeting with my team members at amk library all the way till the library closed ard 9pm so yupz i spent the whole day outside and by the time i went home, it was 10 plus and i was too exhausted to do any work.

The next day which is today is supposed to be teachers' day holiday but my pw grp pple had to dedicate the whole day to doing the 2nd draft of our written report..woke up at 7am and watched a tamil film vcd that my father had bought...had watched it halfway the day before till 1 am. continued today and i din regret waking up early to watch it cuz it was such a sweet movie..haha...met up with my grp members at amk station at 10am and we proceeded to andy's house..we did work there till 5 pm, then moved out and continued work at amk central macs until like 7.30pm...so mind exhausting but we managed to get work done so its ok...reached sengkang ard 8.30pm but a pasar malam near my house attracted my attention and i ended up "window shopping" till 9pm..lol..ran into athirah and gang..haha..so it was also late night by the time i reached home and i never have mood to do work at night. Im really sick now lah...the cough is getting worse..can't stand it..why must i fall sick during the start of the holidays??? Why why why??? Hmmz..tmr have the bio informatics workshop at the science centre in the early morning...haiz..my schedule is always so packed no matter how hard i try to cancel unnecessary appointments...hmmz..hope i dun end up not studying for promos during the holidays. This is the end of my long long entry..thx for reading patiently..Happy september!! Yupz, dun worry..i'll wake you up when september ends. haha..take care peeps!! =)

I dun want him to leave.

2006-08-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

Hihi!! Im blogging!! Well..let's talk abt wad i did over the weekend...saturday i woke up damn early, at 5 am cuz i needed to be at clementi interchange by 8.00am and clementi is soooo far from sengkang can...the bus ride on 156 took 1 and a half hour! That's like the longest bus ride i have ever been on...haha..was the first one to reach the interchange...waited for roy, annabel and amerlyn to reach...oh yah..din specify the purpose of the trip..some of the interact exco members were to attend this national student action conference at NUS...the conference was based on different volunteer work and organisations..so yupz..i was quite excited cuz if im not wrong that was the second time i was stepping inside NUS and being there just makes me feel so near my dreams...lol..anyway, the trip there was fun...roy, amerline and annabel kept me entertained throughout..they are so clowny...haha...the conference itself was not bad...became boring towards lunch time so we decided to escape...lol..the food was quite good...and as some pple may know, one of my favourite hobbies is people watching and there were delicious pple there..haha! Guess who i saw?! Paul Twohill's bro and sis!! The bro is a student at NUS and he gave a short talk during the conference...the sis is a student at nyp and she was a participant at the conference...so cool!! So coincidential that i gotta see them right after they were on TV. Haha..the bro is so cute can..if only paul cut his hair, he will be cute too..lol..I hope to make it to NUS one day...i bet i'll meet some great pple there in the near future..haha..if only i can make it thru stupid A'levels...well, those were the highlights of saturday...haha..

Sunday i tried to study for maths test but i ended up not exactly studying...cuz well i din practise...just read thru my maths notes...and maths must practise mah..so i really had no confidence b4 the test...and yupz i was rite..i could not do the test..not even the easiest qn..haiz..felt quite sad when the rest of my frenz were discussing their answers so excitedly...i think its gonna be a terrible single digit mark once again...hmmz..I dun like to do GP hwk!! So much thinking and its so tedious...haiz...I think my class is getting back its enthusiasm once again...im so happy when 20/06 is N2!! Go 20!! lol.. Oh! I chatted with benjamin(nj) on msn! Haha..so glad that i had time to chat with him again...received some new, juicy gossips on some scandals in nj...lol..im so amazed by the things that happen in life..lol..miss nj and my pae class alot man..i think its been almost 6 months since we last had a class gathering..i really hope that we culd have one aft promos!! =))

He wasn't in the bus today...sad...im becoming more sad as the farewell assembly comes nearer and nearer...he wun be here anymore...he wun be in the bus and i wun have much motivation to go to sch anymore...haiz..i wish he din have to leave...i know hes attached and stuff but well i can't help it...gotta distract myself with a J1 eye candy soon..lol..hmmz..

i wanna go nyp to have lunch, i wanna go watch movie with my frenz, i wanna go shopping, i wanna go back to visit the unit, i wanna wanna wanna do so many things!!! Haha..so much to do, so little time!! lol..i can't wait for promos to end!!!! Haha..oh before i forget, i wuld like to wish my dearest junior sakinah a happy birthday!! haha..hope that all her dreams and wishes will come true..kkk...lol..thats it for now..take carez pple..tag me!! =))

2006-08-24T20:43:00.000-07:00

Have uploaded some of the photographs that we took during interact installation. Wanna see more can go to http://s28.photobucket.com/albums/c237/wassupHOGWARTS/.
Received a bad news frm the exco regarding some stuff...maybe it's good news...i dunno...but wadever it is i just hope that it wun affect our spirit and we'll continue making a difference! Haha...think that im gonna be more busy with interact stuff...was put in charge of the CNY celebrations, also in charge of cheshire home and we also have various other projects for the coming year. Hopefully it wun make me that busy cuz i'm receiving help frm the rest of the exco and tee tong, my assistant for cheshire!! Haha...i'm like so blur and confused when im incharge of stuff so i need all the help i can get..heez..nth else much to blog abt...sch is still the same...im trying to work hard...setting my priorities right...think im obsessed with harimau kumbang..lol..class pic is out..aurili said i looked nice! Yea!! Haha..that's all for now yupz..take carez pple! =))

2006-08-24T19:39:00.000-07:00

From the left : Amerlyn, Aqhilah, Roy, Annabel, James, Wileen and Me! =)
Girl power!! Lol..Annabel went miss though. =)
Us with the friends we had made in the interact leadership training camp.
An informal pic of us...Realize that AJC blazer is really so very bright and cheery..lol..
Members of the exco who went for the leadership camp together with wanling and lyn of NJC and Rebecca of CJC. =)

2006-08-24T19:23:00.000-07:00

Roy with the girls..haha..the six members of interact exco! Together as one. =)
Amerlyn and me!! =))

2006-08-18T23:50:00.000-07:00

Hi! Felt like blogging so here i am. Nth much..just that i have been feeling too happy these few days...i know i shld be happy that im happy..lol..but just that feeling too happy is never really good..as in if u are happy for a long time, sth sad will happen to make up for the same extent of happiness experienced...wadever lah..i know its quite nonsense..but well..sometimes the cynical me thinks this way...dun even have reasons for being happy lor actually...all the more i shld be sad cuz my eye candies don't know that i exist, my frenz r experiencing some problems, i'm unhappy abt some aspects of my cca, having financial crisis now since SOME PPLE ARE TAKING SO LONG TO RETURN ME THE 100 DOLLARS I SPENT FOR INSTALLATION! So many things to be unhappy abt...haha...glad for the little things that make me happy though...like the 20/06 aunties, 98.7 FM in the morning when i go to school,seeing Harimau Kumbang..lol..Im beginning to like bio lessons again with evolution although its kind of abstract..Charles Darwin rawks man!! Haha..he really is a genius to come up with all that stuff..borrowed his "The origin of species" book frm the sch library in the hope of clarifying and enriching myself abt the concepts of evolution..haha..a strange thing for lazy me to do..tmr is red cross flag day and im going for it together with aurelia! Haha..long time since i went around with those tin cans..heez..September Holidays are coming soon and there is a number of stuff that i can look forward to..my holidays are getting booked already..so fast...dun really expect to have much time for studying during the study break.

Went to nyp to have lunch with the aunties, kelly, eileen, arifah, poah sin and weiquan...so happy!! Haha..cuz long time havent gone to nyp already..it was fun, the process of walking to and fro from nyp and lunch itself. Haha..pple were exceptionally nice to me this week...thx to sharmin for helping collect my tamil hwk!! Thx so much to arifah for teaching me how to name organic compounds! Really appreciate that!! Thx to the aunties for always cheering me up and for making me look forward to coming to sch, thx to Harimau kumbang for indirectly encouraging me to take the bus on time to sch...haha...thx to the pple who always make my day by saying hi and smiling at me!! LOL! So many things to be thankful abt...so now u can see that i am really happy!! And i realize that my entry isn't flowing at all..haha..im like just crapping all the way..hmmz...but then i am feeling kind of distant from some pple...some pple whom i used to be close to in the past..kind of sad actually...how u keep losing old frenz when u go to a new phase in life...but liyi said sth today that kind of reassured me...she said sth like u dun always have to meet up with ur frenz or talk to them everyday, just the fact that they are there for you when you need them is good enough for them to be ur frenz...haha..dunno if u pple can understand wad i mean but well..i do and it makes sense. =)

I realize that i really do not share my problems with my frenz as much as they share theirs with me...im always listening more than talking...haha...maybe cuz im an introvert and introverts tend to be more reserved...heez..dunno..just hope that i wuld be able to open up as time passes. Oh...I miss Rahimah!!! S'pore idol feels so empty without her man...haiz...now mathilda's out too and alot of pple are against joakim moving on to the next round cuz they say that he is not improving at all...yet he has so many supporters...i can't see wad is so bad abt his singing...i think im tone deaf or sth like that lah..can't differentiate good singing from bad singing..lol..johnathan is so cute! Haha...cuz hes always smiling when he knows that hes in in the bottom 3 cuz hes gotten so used to it after being in that position for so many weeks..its so funny to see that numb cheerful look on his face while the other two contestants are biting their nails in nervousness waiting for the results...lol..

Hmmz...im happy that im more hardworking nowadays..haha..very few occurences of the leaning tower of kavi during lectures now cuz im so awake!! Haha...thx to the pple who invented coffee and mentos!! Can't live without the two..haha..but i know that staying awake is not enough lah..theres many things i have yet to catch up on...i wish pple wuld stop counting down the days to promos...it just makes me worry more...and i dun feel motivated to study when i am worrying! Haha...thats all i need to spur me on i guess...a little bit of motivation, hardwork, time and positive attitude...I need to be self-motivated and more disciplined!!! Haha...and i need time!! Look thru my organiser and u will know how busy i am and i can safely say that i am much more busier than half the pple in my class...wad with 3 ccas and all...and i have suddenly decided to pay a bit of attention to tldds...haha...so gotta set my priorities right. Just very envious that some pple have so much time and energy to do consistent work...MOTIVATION!! I need MOTIVATION!!! DISCIPLINE too!! Haha...im crazy today..better end of the entry here...haha...so sorry abt the messy organization of my ideas!! Tag me pple pls pls pls!!! I want more tags!! Seeing pple tag in my tagboard makes me happy too! Receiving testimonials and nice surprises make me even happier!!! LOL! Kkz...im going off..byez pple..take carez!! =))

2006-08-12T13:30:00.000-07:00

Hi!! Long time no blog! Haha..many stuff happened...national day is over...celebrations at AJ were sooo boring...my class mascot, cheng en won the consolation prize in the mascot parade thingy...that segment was the only entertaining thing...and i liked redemption's rendition of 'Home', my favourite ndp song..haha..after the celebrations my pw grp and i went to andy's house to do our written report(WR). We worked from 11.30am to 6pm and finally managed to finish the first draft of our WR! So happy! Haha...i still haven done my EOM...just can't find the right article...have to finish by monday!!!

The next day was first aid duty at NDP 2006!! Was so excited...haha...it was fun..the fireworks were amazing as always..great that there were no serious casualties...i managed to get a few goodie bags cuz got alot of leftovers! Haha...and i gave one to liyi since she asked for it way back...haha..am i nice or wad? haha..One good-looking NS officer waved and smiled at me when i was in the chartered bus, alighting at the stadium..haha...then got another handsome officer at the gate that i was stationed at..lol..Coincidentially, Mrs Quek(my sec sch bio teacher), Mdm Cheng(my sec 2 form teacher) and a few of the alumni i know also came into the stadium thru the gate that i was stationed at...they din see me though cuz it was very crowded. Haha...the atmosphere wasn't as great as the NE show where the P5 kids were so fun and enthusiastic but it was ok...there were many pple whom had no seats and had to sit in the platforms near the seating area...I waved to the president!!! Haha...he's so cute!! lol..i knew the exact time the fireworks were gonna be fired at cuz my station was very near the fireworks danger zone where the actual firing off takes place. The timings were 7.31pm, 8.01pm and 8.08pm. The fireworks at the last two timings really took my breath away...haha..was so beautiful!! =)) NDP 2006 was really a great experience...Wonder if i wuld have the time to go for next year's one with A'levels and all..hope i can! :)

Hmmz...Malay lessons with the 3 aunties of 20/06 are great fun!! Haha...i think that cikgu jamilah must be really happy to have such enthusiastic students...lol...my social life is kind of fading away...it has always been school and home for the weekdays and family, homework for the weekends...hope to go visit the unit soon...i was invited for skss prize giving day on the 30th august too so i guess i'll be seeing alot of my ex schoolmates and teachers soon..can't wait!! Haha...promos in 6 weeks! Gotta work hard...lets get promoted together yea J1s? Take carez all! =))

2006-08-04T23:59:00.000-07:00

The weekend is finally here and i have time to blog! Well..life in aj is kind of getting complicated...of cuz schoolwork is a huge burden and im struggling everyday to cope with all the work and all...but its not the academic stuff that is bothering me but its the people around me...all the politics in class is kind of driving me crazy although i dun think i have any part to play in them...friendships are being tested,tears are shed. I just want to be happy but its just so hard with all the sadness and hypocrisy around...dunno wad to do...just hope that everything wuld be ok...haiz...project work is another thing im not happy abt...my pw grp is kind of displeased with me...my leader had a small talk with me and he really made me shed tears with his words...today was really a bad day...all the politics kind of unraveled and I realised that everything was so superficial..dunno who to trust, dunno who to believe. and i dun want all these to affect our studies. Haiz...why do things have to be so complicated? Why can't everyone just take everything easy...hmmz...

Was kind of in a daze the whole day...only enjoyed myself during malay lesson aft sch..haha...cuz the four of us were together and its all that matters. Heez...had to leave early cuz i was going for the nj interact installation to support lyn and wanling, the pres and vice pres whom we had met during the interact leadership camp. Met up with roy and a few of his non interact classmates and we were at nj till like 8pm...their installation was quite different from ours...more formal...but was nice...roman, the nj idol(i had voted for him!), made a guest performance..haha..i remember how last time i eye candied him when i was in nj...benjamin and the rest used to keep criticising roman and his singing...lol..now i realise that he's nth special..haha..roy kept criticising roman too..he said that roman's eyes looked scary when he sang...haha...saw alot of familiar faces at nj...some of my first three months frenz and acquaintances..had a good time interacting...really miss nj loads...i shld not have gone back..it just makes me dislike aj more..oops! lol..sorry to the aj enthusiasts, just spoke my mind.

Went home with roy after installation and told him how i felt abt all the shitty politics and nonsense that happened that day...maybe i had said more than i shld say...but i was just feeling so frustrated and unhappy and had no neutral party to talk to at that time...so roy had no choice but to listen...haha..thx so much for listening roy! Hmmz...6 more weeks to promos...i dun wanna get retained!!!! It'll be so yucks if i retained...goodness, pls help me!!

Remember that i'm always here for you,
in sunshine, rain, sorrows and pain. =)

2006-07-29T20:52:00.000-07:00

Friendship so real

Words cannot express how I feel
Gifts cannot convey my thoughts so real.

What u have done for me,
I will never forget.

The times we had together,
I will never regret.

Our paths may differ, so may our aspirations.

Our destinies may not intersect,
But these we have to accept.

Whatever the case, whatever you face,
I just want you to know that I am glad to have met you.

Someone whom I call a friend,

Someone whom I often depend on,

Someone whom I can be myself to

And someone who accepts me for what I am.

The memories, joy and laughter we shared,
I will remember forever.

You will always occupy a special place in
My heart no matter how far away you are.

Thanks for your care, concern, help, advice, company, jokes and most of all thanks for your friendship! -Poem recital by Interact Exco 06/07

Yea!! Im a happy girl today! Haha..The 23rd AJC Interact Club Installation 06/07 is finally over!! In my opinion, it was a success!! Heez..there were some shortcomings and problems during the implementation of the programme but we managed to work with wad we have and it all just turned out so well..lol..all the hard work paid off!! My food was a success too! There were no leftovers at all..haha..the interactors packed all the leftover food home...Many people said that the apple juice that i had bought was nice! Haha..credits go to the food committee which helped to mix the drink of course..haha..and the aunty had reduced the price of the food to 100 dollars! Good rite? Mr Zahidi, our GOH said that the programme was good and he enjoyed the performances...he said aqilah sang just like michael jackson..lol..go aqilah!! Roy was great too! Mr Zahidi also said that he liked my poem! Heez..Haha..Annabel's speech was so well written, full of meaning..I like! My exco and i took so many photographs with the guests and the interactors from other jcs..it was kind of fun actually..the whole thing..although i was so flustered at the beginning with all the preparations and all...hmmz..officially the treasurer of interact now..hope i do a gd job just like Anita did..speaking of anita, she really is the best senior i've had! Haha..she was great help and is still helping me with alot of treasurer stuff..and today's her birthday! So happy birthday Anita!! hope that all ur dreams and wishes come true! =)) I'm still busy now though even if installation is over cuz i have to work out the budget for the whole event which is a very big headache....lol..Our first Board of Directors meeting is coming soon...jiayou interact exco! =)

During the installation, received a piece of good news...My juniors, including my sis, frm SKRCY had taken part in the current affairs competition hosted by skss and they emerged as the champions of the north district!! I was really surprised cuz honestly, after seeing their report i din expect them to win...just so glad that they managed to win a trophy after the one year of drought..(no offence to anyone's batch=)) Went to skss to see xian li, peijie, michelle and gaya3 who are in the winning team...they told me abt wad happened during the announcement of results and all..heard that they too were really shocked when they heard that they were north district champions..heard that my sis shed tears of happiness..haha..was happy to see the few of them aft a long time of not going down for trainings...congrats darlings!! Work hard for EUA! Acknowledegemnts to Mr Yap, Melanie and all who have helped in one way or another! =))

Yst we had the council investiture cum cca handing over ceremony at aj...was good cuz we had a couple of cca leaders in our class...bad cuz i was sitting right at the back and i had to stand so that i culd see wad was happening on stage...was so frustrating...but it was ok..we cheered for liyi!! Haha..she said that she was very touched..no prob girl! Luv ya loads, be a good councillor yah!! We cheered for weiquan, the "pro" guitar ensemble president! lol..and finally we cheered for my dearest steven, who is the new Puma House captain!! So cool can! Steven is the new puma house captain!!! I was so happy when i heard the news from him...he's the vice captain of air rifle too..hope that he wuld be able to cope with all the activities..go steven!! After that had parent teachers meeting session...was not gd..all the teachers said bad comments abt me to my parents....haiz...was kind of discouraging but it was ok..my parents din really hound me abt it..they just reassured my tutors and told them tt i wuld be able to do it...mrs siva told my father that i am talkative in class can!! My father was so surprised to hear that cuz no teacher has ever said that about me before...lol..mrs siva and mrs ong were implying that im not serious during lessons and am always talking to my frenz and all...hmm..wonder why my father hasn't started lecturing me yet...lol..i will work hard though..i am determined to get better results but its just that sometimes im too exhausted to put any effort..promos in 2 months..waiting for a miracle to happen with all my 3 H2 subjects. =)

Bought a new bag! Went shopping at bugis with aurelia and saw this bag with smiley faces all over it..decided to buy that cuz i liked it...suzy says i look like an aunty when i carry it though...so bad! And liyi said looking at my bag makes her want to faint! Haha..but i still like my bag i dun care! To Liyi, Suzy and aurelia: Nothing can sink friendship rite? Not even a humongous ice berg...so lets not let any external problems affect our friendship alrite! Luv ya gals loads!! There are alot of things to be happy abt this week...a hectic week but a fun one. Thx to everyone who had made a difference...till my next entry, take carez all! =))

2006-07-23T15:35:00.000-07:00

Hello!! Haven't blogged for sooo long..haha..Just returned from interact leadership training camp..3 days 2 nights at Changi adventure MOE campsite...wuld not really say that the camp programmes were fun cuz there were too many talks of which i slept thru almost everything..lol..but i got to know abt my role as a treasurer and more stuff abt interact which i did not know in the past...after the normal programme was the best part where we got to interact with the pple from other schools....got to know loads of pple frm other jc interact clubs..have so much installations to attend now...haha..im glad i went for the camp also cuz i got to know my exco pple more...annabel,amerlyn,roy and aqilah... they were all so funny...we were all so super high when we got together...esp at night..haha..and they are all so sweet and thoughtful..annabel, roy and amerlyn made an effort to speak in english all the time when aqilah and i were there which i appreciate alot...not like some pple i know who refuse to make an effort to speak in english even though i requested them to do so...hmph..anyway, i managed to survive the camp without coffee for two whole days and i'm so proud of myself for that...hmmz..actually alot of nice things happened but there's no time to blog them all..too bad james and wileen culd not make it..think they missed out on quite alot of stuff..haha..Thx to everyone who had made the camp enjoyable!! AJ Interact Exco 06/07 rawks!!! =))

Now that camp is over, i have to get on with normal life...installation is coming in less than 7 days..we still have so much things to do...we are working on a tight budget of $200! Mr Chan is so mean to me lah...why can't he give me more money to work on..haiz..think that alot of pple will be cuming for installation..really hope that we dun malu ourselves on saturday...got back my result slip and remarks from my tutors...the remarks made me feel so discouraged....only mr hong wrote gd things abt me..all the rest of the tutors wrote things like i needed to focus during tutorials, i gotta buck up..i need improvement..that kind of stuff..im a real bad student i know but none said anything abt character which is like such an impt thing..haiz..guess my parents are gonna hear alot of bad comments during the parent-teacher meeting session on the 29th...hmmz..alot of tutorials left undone...have to go shopping for the GOH souvenirs and gifts...so many things on my mind!! And it has been ages since i went down for skrcy trainings...i miss the kutchi, the kitty, the rabbit, the piggy and all the other animals in the zoo!! Haha! Life is so packed...3 more months to promos,the exam that will determine my destiny..cuz if i dun do well in promos, i'm gonna drop out of the whole A'level rubbish...i'd rather go to poly where i wuld have a guaranteed future instead of wasting time on A's which might not actually guarantee me a good future..so yupz..i have three months left to decide whether i wanna stay on...hmmz..ok then...till my next entry, good bye!! =))

2006-07-14T20:40:00.000-07:00

Harlow!! Its gonna be a long post today..I've been busy..and yeah..im becoming more hardworking..at least im trying very hard not to dream during lectures..so that's an improvement..had a long talk with mr Hong, my form tutor...told him many stuff..felt better after talking to him..hmmz..i'm learning malay now! Together with aurili, liyi and suzy...we had our first lesson today and it was fun! Lol..cuz i was overly enthu..haha..i love those three makciks loads can..lol..found out that i dun have to do the yeoman service in the library..cuz i did return the book before the due date..it was the library's fault! Haha...did make up pe with wee theng yst..poor her..she had to keep up with my slow running speed..lol..have one more make up pe to complete..all cuz i lost the mc that i took during the holidays for the remedial pe...so angry! I left the mc at the canteen toilet and culd not find it later on..think the toilet aunty threw it away or sth..haiz..haha..

Had interact on wed...did my job as a treasurer by collecting the club fund that day..received a compliment from one of the interactors..she said i was very suitable to be the treasurer cuz i was so enthu abt collecting money...lol..amerlyn and me will be carrying out our cip at daybreak student service centre from next wed onwards..working with children again..quite excited but scared at the same time cuz i saw the kid that im going to tutor..he's in primary 2 and seems really hyperactive..dunno i can handle him or not..wish i had gotten a girl..girls are so much more well behaved than guys..haha..

GP lesson today was fun!! I had so many things to say...Haha..Mrs Siva is much better at teaching than mr akshir...i feel more comfortable voicing out my opinion with her...but i still miss mr akshir..lol..hmmz..Having NDP NE show tmr...looking forward to it! Haha...oh..and i have finally told my parents my results...they din say anything...they din scold me...they were so supportive to the extent that i became so disappointed with myself for not doing well enough to make them happy...they just asked me to try harder and my mother even congratulated me for topping my class in tamil....haix...I'll make them proud by improving tremendously for my promos!! =))

Like i promised, here are my terrible marks for u to see...and if any of my juniors or poly frenz are reading, do understand that jc exams are not the same as exams in sec sch and i really slacked alot in the first two terms so yah..dun be shocked by my results yeah...I'll just put the grades though. For ur info, this is the grading scheme.:

A level pass: 70-100--A
60-69--B
55-59--C
50-54--D
45-49--E
Sub-Pass: 35-44--S
Fail: 0-34--U

Here are my grades:

GP- C

Tamil- A

Bio- S

Chem- S

Maths- U

Geog- D

Hmmz..i think i will write my exact marks also lah..doesn't matter..

GP- 54/100

Tamil- 85/100

Bio- 37.5/100

Chem- 35.5/100

Geog- 51/100

Maths- 8/100 =(

Maths was a difficult paper..and i din study for it..so i deserve the marks.Glad that i'm getting help from my bio, chem and maths teachers..congrats to liyi for doing well in almost all her subjects! Haha..Aurili got an A for geog! So proud of her..haha..keep going girl..we can do it! Congrats to all the top scorers in 20/06! Do help pple like me yah..we are desperate! Haha..Norman was eliminated from S'pore idol...not a surprising result...but it was surprising that johnathan leong was in the bottom 3 though...and i'll be so sad if joakim leaves the competition..i want him to stay!! Haha..hmmz.. feel like there's kind of a tense atmosphere in PW grp...and our project lacks innovation...and we have so many things left to do..i dun have time for myself at all man..hope i dun get too stressed...i tend to be very negative when im stressed out...and i want to be positive so that good things wuld happen! Thats it for today..thx for reading..take carez pple! =))

2006-07-11T19:50:00.000-07:00

End of world cup.

Italy won.

I'm happy.

haha..

but wad happened with ZZ and MM at the end was quite sad...

such a negative way to end the whole month of footballing action...

but actually..

if i really think abt it..

italy won cuz they had luck on their side i wuld say..lol..

Tamil A'level oral's over. Satisfied with the way i had performed.

A busy week ahead.

I'm gonna be a hardworking student from now onwards.

It means less online time, less tv, less slacking, less blogging and shorter entries.

Like this. =) (but i guess i will end up blogging a humongous entry sooner or later.lol)

2006-07-08T23:51:00.000-07:00

Harlow!! Back from ndp family day...man..i really enjoyed myself..lol..the fireworks were so amazing...everything was amazing..haha..was given $14 allowance for the first aid duty..an unexpected gift i shld say...haha..cuz i thought it was just volunteer work..had no partner so i had to pair up with a guy called brandon from the singapore polytechnic red cross chapter..haha..got to know the sp pple thru him...they were all really nice and fun...saw yongxuan at the national stadium..the biggest coincidence was that he came into the gallery seating area thru the exact gate that me and my partner were stationed at..lol..hmmz..then we just slacked lah..cuz there was no chance for any casualties during the performances mah...we had to stand throughout the whole show though..so was a bit tiring...and since we were standing by the gate, pple always asked us for directions and stuff..lol..i think we looked more approachable than the SAF guys who were guarding the gate..haha..

The fireworks time was when the first aiders had to be extra vigilant cuz those sitting at the back, near the area where the fireworks start might be at a risk of getting burnt from the sparks..we din spot any casualties but a senior first aider from AVD spotted a woman who was having breathing difficulties cuz she was too shocked by the fireworks...it was kind of funny actually...cuz even little kids were not afraid of the fireworks but she was sooo scared till she became traumatised leading to respiratory distress...she had to be stretchered out of the stadium to the medical post...dun think there were any other major casualties besides her...oh! and u know who was my area IC? It was the same person who examined my sch cadets for standard first aid! Lol..dunno if he recognized me anot..haha..

We had KFC dinner...yummy..haha..we waited till all the spectators left the stadium before we had our debrief and stuff...couldn't get to see christina, zhiqi and calvin who were in the marching contingent..think they went back to hq earlier or maybe later..no idea..the first aiders left for HQ in a SBS chartered bus...The SP pple were joking around during the trip..lol..i like my partner! He's really nice and we have quite a number of things in common..both of us stay in sengkang..he was from ST John's while i was from red cross..he knows mrs emily cheng from skss...and we both support Italy!! Haha...dunno if he wuld be my partner next week or not..i dun mind pairing up with him again..haha..gotta know a few pple today too..happy! Haha..can't wait for next week's NDP/NE show! Heez..but i guess NDP wuld get boring after a while..the fireworks wuld always amaze me though..haha..

World Cup finals at 3am today(which is like tmr)...hope i'd be able to catch it without falling asleep..supporting Italy although i have a feeling france wuld win...germany won 3rd place..haha..its ok..let the host country be happy...hmmz..world cup fever ends with the finals tmr..so sad..haha..nvm lah..4 years later then can have the fever again..haha..kkz gtg..byez! =))

2006-07-07T23:10:00.000-07:00

I was so sad in sch today...got back maths and chem results that's why...and i will display all my marks soon even if they r really very ugly and humiliating to be displayed...haiz...think im the worst student in 20/06? Cuz there are students who fail like one or two a'level subjects but i dun think there are any who failed all three H2 subjects as badly as me...and gaya3, if ur reading this..pls dun go and tell our parents yet...i know when to tell. Thx. Aurelia and liyi kind of made things better though...at least i wasn't sulking all day...thx guys.

Mr Hong seemed disappointed with us during maths lesson...which teacher wouldn't be with 72% failures...hmmx...ms leow gave me a letter of encouragement...she really is a nice teacher and she said in the letter that she believes in me and wuld not give up on me...i was so touched..i shld work hard, at least for her.And im not giving up on myself too. Never. =)

Sch ended at 12.45 cuz of the excel fest thingy...went to see the cadets' talentime in the hope that i wuld feel better if i see them...i did for a while..haha...they were really funny...was hoping that derek wuld be coming...felt that talking to him might have helped me to feel better somehow..he did not turn up but i was grateful when sakinah came....chatted with her...gossiped and even told her how i felt abt many things...kind of strange that i opened up to her cuz i din really talk to her much in the past...but well..it felt good after talking to her...haha..thx sakinah!! =)

Melvin was sick but he still came to train the cadets...poor thing...he looked so unwell..so scary...he shld not have come in the first place...haiz...hope he gets well soon...=)) Suzy din come to sch today cuz she was sick too..lol..so many pple falling sick...missed suzy loads during lessons and breaks...hope she gets well soon and returns to sch on monday..cheer up suzy!! =))

Stayed with the cadets till around 6.30pm then left cuz i had pw meeting at breeks, ang mo kio. Haha..kind of missed my pw group members...i haven't attended any meetings for quite some time already..we had dinner and discussed our project..love crapping with them...if given time, we culd have gone on talking for hours...lol..but it was already 9.30pm by the time our discussion cum crapping session ended and we had to leave breeks..haha..will be going to kelvin's church on sunday to interview a HPB personnel..hope the interview turns out well. =)) NDP first aid tmr...wun be at home till 11plus..im excited! =))

I'm surprised how sometimes my mood can change so drastically...at one instant i'll be sulking and completely silent...then suddenly i can become all smiley and talkative...lol..its kind of amazing actually...but i wish i culd be able to control it..it wuld be better that way..haha..that's it then..take carez everyone!! =))